I hear this song ...

Amazing Grace

some time ago, a friend shared this song / gospel.

I didn't know the title but

and upon hearing the 1st few notes, I had tears rolling down my cheeks.

They just came down ..

I guess it must have been the memories I had ..

the very 1st time I heard this song was during mummy's funeral (albeit the chinese version)

and for the following don't know how many days / months / years ...

my heart has found solace in this gospel ..

because it will be accompanying mummy (and us) throughout this journey for a long long time.

At that time, I used to sing and hymm this song for mummy ... so that she'll not feel so lonely and afraid in her 'journey' and so that she know I'm with her always although we are 'far far apart'

Only god knows how how much I miss you ...

PRECIOUS (from BBWS 2011)

Guess how much this set of 'Brain Quest' would have cost me outside? When I found them ( only a few left) and a 'gentleman' is trying to conveniently grab them from my box, I gave him that 'stare' ...haha
You can take anything that's meant for me...but never anything that's meant for my children...













Omnibuses from some of my fav authors (like Danielle Steel, Dorothy Koomsoon, Nora Roberts, Ken Follett, David Baldacci) ... for RM10 each. Effectively, that's RM5 per story.











Golds ... some books which I've been wanting very much to read & own but didn't willing to part with my $$. The prospect of finding them was estatic ... particularly Nicholas Sparks - The last song & The lucky ones and Anchee Min - Empress Orchid & The last empress. RM8 each even for hardcover.













Some other books which I'm very glad to find ... Felt like hitting jackpot .. albeit a smaller windfall but nevertheless, never failed to bring smile.

















Some asian writings ... which I start to find intriguing and interesting. Perhaps it's due to the rich culture and something we are able to relate to.

Another set of books from parenting, self help and general ... these are treasures =) RM8 each except for Lilian Too feng shui - RM15.

Last but not least - children books ranging from RM3 - RM6. Except for the 300 over pages Disney storybook collection for RM12. Was lucky didn't get the lace & trace motor skill development kit from another bookfair earlier for RM27. Now I got something similar for RM6 (with six different designs inside) ... yippie.

wth...I've got more important things to attend to.

Today at this time, I'm supposed to be physically present at office testing for DR (Disaster Recovery) exercise.

But here I'm sitting at computer right @ home. Instead I conveniently ask help from another colleague to 'stand in' for me and conveniently told my boss that I'm not able to come and had make arrangement for it. I believe due credit must be given to my colleague for helping me.

I've got a 2nd chance today ... to attend to something which I've been longing to. Never mind that it's taking up a whole day, never mind that I may be rated 'irresponsible / under-performing' at work, never mind all that ...because to me, this is way more important.

till then, wish you have a good day too =)

花花世界花家姐

Just managed to finish watching this ... Next to complete is Secret Garden (Korean series).

next up, big bad wolf (local series) ... =p

previous weekend experiment

白果 fu chuk barley ....

I think I used the wrong type of 'fu chuk' as it took very long time to really melt.

Lesson : ask the shopkeeper for the type for boiling 'tong shui'

chicken leg mushroom + ang ku kueh - what they have in common?

last time it was this

now this

我和 '他' 有一个约会

Tomorrow (or rather today)

I'm having a date with 'him'

I've been eyeing 'him' for god knows how long before I dare to ask 'him' out.

Looking back, it must have been the fear of rejection, feeling of helplessness that were holding me back.

So, last week, I buck up the courage to ask 'him'

and he said 'YES'

I was elated. It was like having a big stone lifted from my heart.

So, now I'm sleepless over tomorrow's date.

It has been some time since I'm in the dating scene, so I wonder whether I'll be 'good enough'

I wonder how's it like when we meet, I'm worried about what should I wear, what are we going to do, what are we going to eat, and when it comes to paying ...

My heart is fluttering, so is my stomach ... how many hours more do I have to wait? Why time seem to pass so slowly...

how to use?

got this gym ball for RM5 from tesco ... now I'm learning how to use it.

This ball come right on time ... just when I need it =)

3000+ steps

Managed to reach 3000+ steps this morning ... although I lost some counts in between when seeing and greeting some neighbours.

Nevertheless, I feel good.

Yah, I know counting steps is childish and non-productive.

But it's effective to get my mind of my worries.

pencil & eraser

Pencil: I'm sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm so...rry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day.

For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

This is to all the parents out there...

By: MacgyverWong Giok Aik

a quiet sunday morning

is what I need most currently

to sort out my life,

to calm my mind,

to accept all the 'shocks'

to get myself back

to finish my 'unfinished business'

God, please give me the strength to carry on..

signing off, preparing for a solitude walk around the neighbourhood to clear my mind, body & soul.

my sky is cloudy, I could not see clearly

It seems that I'm being given big cloud(s) everyday and I'm not sure how long can I hold in the rain before the downpour.

and because of these big cloud(s), I really cannot see clearly.

will I be able to survive through all these and see clearly again?

why are there so many many mountains for me to climb, so huge oceans for me to cross? ... I'm really very very tired.

my RM1 happiness

when I feel like I'm living 1 day at a time,

even a RM1 happiness is worth it...

(RM1 for 12 design pencils from tesco)

when nothing seem right, there must be something that's right..

Of late, nothing seem right ...

so many things happening that I no longer know what's right and what's wrong.

I feel my life at this juncture can qualify for a good drama script.

Every night when I sleep I hope things will go away

only to realise that it will come back the moment I wake up.

I want to cry but I didn't managed to cry.

I think I've slowly learnt to detach myself from myself.

bookfest 2011

the left stack for ah bi while the right stack for mama. Papa don't read paperbook =p

some free bookmark timetable from EPH publishing @ Bookfest 2011. Ah bi likes them.

babybook

Thank you to FL who brave the norm to get a copy of this complimentary book. I've finished reading the book. It is indeed an informative book complete with discount vouchers.

I'll pass this book around (and many other pregnancy & childcare books) for sharing =) do let me know if you need any ..hehe

ps. FL, thank you for the SMURF badge too. Got it!

they are ready but I'm not ...

The fabrics are waiting but I just realised that superstitiously I'm not suppose to sew.

So my project got to wait.

maybe this more time is meant to allow me to get more fabrics leftovers =)

Don' t go breaking my heart + Secret garden

Thanks to CY, I now have many nice movies / series / dramas to catch up =) really got back the joy of watching again.

now I know ..

I must admit that I'm not one who really take note & care about what I eat.

I used to almost always eat everything edible without paying much attention to GI / calories / content of the food.

It wasn't until a few days ago that I was to deal with a blow right in my face. I could not longer eat as I used to. Now I have to be very careful with what I put inside my mouth and swallow.

Now I know how it feels like when we feel like eating something but we can't.

To tell you I'm not sad, it's not true.

To tell you that it didn't affect me, it's not true.

But it's not the end, it's only the beginning.

I'm learning to deal with it.

I'm aware that I still have a long long way to go.

ps. and to a friend who went all the way to give me a booklet on foods & calories guide. Thank you so much for lending me your support and listening ears. Hopefully my results are ok.

thank you gals for the night

Thank you to my friends for taking time for the night. You may not know how much it meant to me =) All I can say is : it is ALOT =)