one door closed, another door opened

Since last month, I've gradually lost 3 of my breast pumping session companions.

(Yes, in case you're wondering, we do it TOGETHER in a room the size of a toilet cubicle ... i bet it does reflect how close and intimate we are)

1 transferred, 2 resigned 

So here I'm down to 1.

For the 1st few days, I was not used to it. 

I felt something was amiss ... it's like a part of me is missing. 

I'm not used to having the small little space all to myself.

However, I guess it takes time to get used to it.

Recently, I started discovering again 

(1) the wonders & pleasure of reading 

...i hardly have time to read @ home but over the past 2 weeks, i managed to finish a book!

(2) the wonders & pleasure of being alone 

... to wind down especially during stressful times. 

(3) the wonders & pleasure of listening to radio 

... Ai FM (chinese radio station) in particular ... can learn chinese, learn about topic of discussions and get to listen to real nice songs)

(4) the wonders & pleasure of escaping from gossip 

...you know what they say that you can't escape from the grapevine when you put a few 'ah so' together. 

Since I'm the only one left ... I always do get asked

"Now left you 1 only ah? So how?"

"Now left you 1 only ah? so cham?"

so much so that I've just got to smile and say : 

"What to do? 4 people together or me alone .. my baby still need drink milk everyday"

track to track I'm on track ...

Since April this year, I've again started to track my expenses daily.
It's true that they say 'you won't know where your money go until you start tracking them' 
and so I resorted to the conventional way of tracking my expenses in a physical log book (yes, I know I can do more with excel but it just doesn't work for me)
What prompted me to start was the fact that not only my savings is not growing, it is depleting pretty fast.


After the 3 months tracking & to my horror, I've been spending money like drinking water. 
Unconsciously I've been siphoning money out of my account. 
Unconsciously I've been using money to compensate whatever that's missing in my life.
Unconsciously I've been very not careful with my spending.


So I made myself put a brake to my urge to spend.
And today's the 5th day ... so far I'm still ok. 
Hopefully this will last but I'm not too sure about it. I'm bad in this.