Growing and improving every day

She is growing and improving each day albeit at her own pace. Today she shared with me a secret how she can remember what she learnt or need to remember. She said : do revision of the thing to remember before sleep. Then before you sleep after you off the light, you say the things that you want to remember out loud. You photostat (copy) the thing that you want to remember in your brain and you go through it again in your brain. You will remember it tomorrow when you wake up in the morning.

I'm grateful she found a way that can help her be better in her learning. I'm grateful that God showed her the way and showed me the way. Thank you

 

Milk tea for mama

 My children made milk tea for me + themselves for mother's day celebration. It may not be comparable to commercial milk tea but it is best for me...with the ngam ngam sweetness. It is simple yet I'm grateful. 

Hello 2023

The few seconds before 2023 were spent with my children welcoming a brand new year while trying to catch a few glimpse of the mini fireworks from our room window.

Earlier my daughter had made a video of new year wishes. We were still in holiday mode as I was on leave and we just came back from family trip. 2022 was with ups and downs and I'm thankful for every moment of it. Some days bringing me sweat and tears, some days bringing me heartwarming love from family and friends, somedays are so hard that I feel like giving up but looking back everything happen for some reasons (and act as reminders).

2023 ... we wish it is a better year for all of us, if it's a rough year, may God let me have the strength and wisdom to pull through. This is the year of change for me (change for better) and to live my life in the present the best way possible.

We are 13 days nearer to end of 2023...so I vowed to give my best for the remaining 352 days and be grateful for every day that I'm waking alive and breathing

last post for year 2022

Today is 31/12/2022 and last day of year 2022. It has been a year filled with ups and downs. It is also a year of 'wake up call' for me. Many things happened and some really make think thrice about what have I done so far..

is it really how I want to leave my life? 

Am I wasting my life away doing something I detest? 

Why can't I just for once live for myself? Life is short and I'm halfway already.

My children are growing up fast and I sort of regret not spending enough time with them. Seriously what's the use earning money trying to make a living when I couldn't be there for them when they need me most. Sad..

So come 2023, I'm finding my way out of the rut, going to do what is important to me, going to focus on my priorities (my children, my family, my life, my health). I'm just a normal human with my flaws and limitations. I'm with limited time and resources so I do not waste in on things that does not matter..I'm sorry but this can only be the way forward. And for once, i have this strong urge to venture into education industry educating our future generation.

And I'm starting my own youtube channel to share some info and raise public awareness. My motto for tomorrow : just do it (wrong or right never mind, as long as I get started and even if wrong, I take corrective action from there)

Last but not least, thank you 2022 for a wonderful year that gave me a wake up call on what are the important things in my life and making me realised that me and only me can make the change.

Crochet

I'm thankful my daughter is into crochet and knitting. It helps to mellow down her temper and allow her to learn to relax. And allow her to learn to put in effort to complete a 'project'

Some of her creations and hopefully next time she will have her own brand of crochet items and crafts :) 

One eye monster easy breathe

For some time, I've been having nose block at night. Sometimes to the extent of affecting my slumber time. So to ease my breathing, he made me essential oil blend after doing some research. Thank you dear for the 'one-eye monster easy breathe' Now I can grin like it :D 

一位父亲的故事

About 2 moons ago, we met schoolmates' father (Uncle A) at a nearby coffee shop.
Uncle has just came from a dentist appointment at the klinik pergigian (government dental clinic).
Uncle mentioned nowadays after retiring, everything better go to kerajaan, cheaper.
As we talked, most naturally stories of children and parents were brought up.
Uncle asked about my husband's parents and updated us about his children (DA and SA).
DA is married and living with his wife in UK.
SA is married with 4 children living with her husband in Singapore.

Uncle mentioned her daughter's husband is very good. takes good care & spend time with family. and even they are living far away, he gets to meet his grandchildren online.
Meanwhile his son has a not-so-even tempered wife and is controlling his son.
Then he looked at me and said, in his religion, the man should be the pillar of the home, the man should be the decision maker, the wife can give opinion and support.

It was what uncle A said towards the end of conversation pains my heart.
"I just ask for 70£ out of his 5, 6k pay, that's like less than 2% of his pay but just the other day, he just email me to say he no longer can afford to give me. 
He doesn't even bother to explain. 
Uncle say he don't understand."
Uncle sounded and looked sad. I couldn't bear to bring myself to look at him.

That was about the last words we heard from him before he left the coffee shop.

I told myself never to judge, for I do not know what others are going through each day.
I myself have my fair share of problems too.

feeling serai (read : sir-ray-ee)

For a person who do not have green fingers, nothing beats the satisfaction of harvesting own fruits roots of labour.

Capturing the mess, the grass and the roots of serai (lemongrass)

The end product which distributed among relatives, neighbours and colleagues

I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

English song is not something I listen to frequently.
Somehow I just couldn't figure the full lyrics of the song while listening to it (blame it on my half baked English)
However, this song stands out.
I just fall in love with it the 1st moment I heard it.
I never found out the name of the song but when my eldest asked me what song do I want to listen to on youtube.
I told him "I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you"
and I added "This is one of mama's favourite song"
So they will get excited and exclaim that is 'mama's favourite song' each time we heard it played somewhere sometime.

Then today, something got into me that I went searching for the lyrics
and you got it right
It even got better and more meaningful.
Here to share a beautiful song (also to have it archived due to my deteoriating memory) 

Meghan Trainor Ft John Legend Like I'm Gonna Lose You Lyric

2014 2015

The transition from 2014 to 2015 this time was just like any other day.
Doing things that I would have done on any other rest day.
And as previous years, I think I'm still lagging behind, stranded at 2014.

2014 was a mixed year for me 
a bag filled with 'goodies' and still ok 'goodies'

Among the things worth memories in 2014 (in no particular order though) :

• the blow of no increment & no bonus 
• the transfer that almost didn't happen
• continue breastfeeding
• newphew : new addition to our family
• Sister in law got married
• Passing of ku yeh
• depleted a big portion of my savings
• watching my children grow
• free / almost free vacations
• diversification 
• gone a little more green & eco-friendly 
• more spiritual learning
• learning to let go
• cleared quite some clutters at home

For 2015, I 

• to continue breastfeeding
• To practice 三好 : 存好心, 做好事, 说好话
• catch up pay wise and bonus (although not possible to compensate back loss of a year)
• time to rebuild my savings / emergency funds
• Intensive learning Chinese
• Exercise
• To love myself 1st & take care of myself 1st 
• Learn to drive around independently
• Live in the present & be present
• Be a better 'me' - as mother, as daughter(in law), as wife, as friend, as colleague, as a member of society.

Wishing everyone a wonderful 2015 ahead. 

Go ahead! 

Smell the roses and make your lemonade! 

1 year dy lo

my little one has just celebrated her 1st birthday.
In this 1 year, I'm very grateful for every moment that I spent with my children.
I learnt and grew together with them ...
Every moment is very precious 
and I'm thankful for every moment I get to be their mother ... 
I know I am greedy but I do want to continue growing with them year by year 
because I could never love them enough ...

Sharing the below video ... 
click on lower right corner for english subtitles

longing for you

You

You didn't leave my mind the whole night. 
for many many nights...

And without mercy, 
you appear in my dreams ... making me want you more.

Every morning without fail, 
I'll peek at the window at you. 

Every evening before the sun set, 
I can't stop myself peeking at you for one more time.

Sometimes I blushed when our eyes meet

Sometimes I hide 
I love just watching you from afar ... letting my imagination run wild..

what will the suprise be when I open you up?

how juicy will you be when i taste you?

how good will you be (that you keep enticing me like that)?

how good will you be fulfilling the needs of a thirsty woman?

you know there are boundaries I can't cross

you know there are risks I can't take

you know there are people like me you can't flirt with

cause I might do anything I can just to have you next to me.

How could you be so cruel to me? (when I love you so much)

I'm desperately in love with you
I'm longing for you

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