desperation & funny things

Most of us are not born rich ... 
thus we have to accumulate our wealth from scratch.
I used to be and am still am a person with need for sense of security,
I need to accumulate some money to make me feel safe.
However I realised it isn't enough just for me to accumulate passively aka. saving.
I need to put my money to work for me ...
I earned them the hard way, so why should they be resting on their laurel? 
Shouldn't they work harder for me?

My work life journey wasn't smooth 
had a lot of bumps which I crawl and crawl and crawl over while peers sprint to the finishing line. 
I slowly started to believe the problem lies with me. 
I grew up.
I learnt my lesson.
I couldn't control what other people think or do. But I can take charge of what I do.
As part of the learning process, it force something out of me. 
Desperation do funny things to people. 
That 'funny things' could be good or bad.

I was stupid enough to believe

Again and AGAIN, 

I'm being stupid.

I know those are not truth, 

I know those are words play,

I know those are empty promises,

I know and I KNOW

but then who's just JUST so SO stupid enough to believe?

That person is ME

dream box

my dream box 

(although I prefer a cheaper version)

which I stumble across in Kinokuniya.

Perhaps my next project ... developing my own line of dream box like this albeit a more affordable version ....

LOL>>>> keep dreaming