last week

Last week...
Do you remember what had you done last week? 
Anything you feel good about or anything you regretted doing?

The last week 
with the deepavali holiday in the middle of the week,
I feel I had finally done 'something'

Cut the grass & re-organise plants (procrastinate for 3 months because I didn't get a garden scissors). 
Planted some new plants : papaya & custard apple trees, sweet potato vege, spring onions
Brought small one for neighbourhood walk, got many ideas on what to plant, got to know aunty who planted vegetable on the empty land.
Had deepavali celebration
wrapped and started reading a few very precious books (finally!)
Gone for that long overdue medical checkup
Brought children for family fun day philharmonik performance (my 1st time too!) and dancing fountain @ KLCC park.
Work appraisal done, disaster recovery at work done.

I know I know,
those things sound petty right?
No big deal ... everyone is doing something every single day.
But these 'somethings', they do mean alot to me 

Wishing everyone of us having a good last week, this week and next week!

stop worrying, start living

I have been a worry wart and am still a worry wart.

and I worry myself sick.
worry is like invisible stress that slowly kills
and I think I'm caught in that big black hole of endless worrying.
There's always something which I worry about ... my children, my family...
It's tiring. 
I'm exhausted 
but I couldn't stop myself from worrying.
When people tell me not to worry too much, 
I used to say 'I also hope I can' 
but sometimes in my heart, I will think it's easier to say than to do.
Now, when I think back, these people actually meant good.
They didn't want me to worry too much because worry can actually kill.
What more is when you worry all by yourself, dare not share burden with others.

So today, after being 'reminded' by a friend past few days,
I decided I STOP worrying and START LIVING.
For each time my worry come into my mind, I will do a blessing instead ... action & thought.
Somethings if meant to happen will happen.
Somethings happened for some reasons.
So living in the PRESENT, doing whatever I can NOW is all that matter.
I'm only HUMAN. 

1st time listen, already like

謝安琪 '鍾無艷'

From the very 1st time I heard this song on radio, I fell in love.