finally

Finally hopefully we can get our peaceful and clean home sweet home back

For those of you who had been to my house during the previous 11 months (almost a year) will have noticed the massive renovation on our neighbour's house. it's like building a house from scratch

While I think my neighbour are sure to be very happy to be finally be able to move in to their DREAM home, 

I guess I'm the HAPPIER one around.

For we have live in constant UNpeace of mind for the almost past 1 year.

it's like I'm staying in a PRISON and yet I'm in my home.

Imagine living next to a construction side,
so much so that we have to seal the house (meaning all door and window closed) in order to avoid the whole house being polluted. 

- the amount of noise 

- the amount of dust 

- the amount of toxic (cement, paint and i don't-even-know-what)

- the amount of inconvenient (we can't hang our clothes to dry outside... or it will be dirtier than before wash, constant cleaning of porch and home required...etc)

- the amount of ugly sights 

- the amount of rubbish (you know what happen when you have that BIG construction rubbish disposal metal box bin, plus it's the festive spring cleaning season)

- the amount of mosquitoes due to the above (don't even mention the smell)

- the amount of stress - drilling, banging, knocking, you name it. Also thinking the amount of toxic my children are breathing in every single day. Also the chinese believe that there should not be renovation of house during pregnancy....the list is just endless

- the damage the renovation caused to our already old house (and deny it's because of them)

- the 4 different batches of foreign workers (some are ok, some are scary)

- the deprivation - fresh air, gardening time, play time with kid outside house, the chance to have a clean house

- the entrance of house being blocked- loading unloading, worker car

oh...I can go on and on...

yes, exactly, I really sounded like an old grumpy nanny complaining. 

I was eager to celebrate western new year with PEACE but I didn't get to...

I'm thankful though I get to celebrate chinese new year with PEACE ... 

Before this I used to have a little intention to extend the house... but now, I don't think I want to ... a small house is just good enough for us, we stay close & warm and sweet with lesser cleaning. 

Finally, we are seeing light at the end of the tunnel...

After having endure so much for the past almost 1 year, I'm don't have the 'gas' to complain anymore, i'm just plain grateful that it's all coming to an end...

and here's to a new beginning

Having said all the above, don't get me wrong, I do not blame my neighbour ... 
it's just the timing and it's just our luck ... 
perhaps god wanted us to learn something ... to learn to appreciate what we have, to appreciate things we taken for granted and things we do not realised we have all along.

Welcome back, my dearie home :D

GO SLEEP EARLY

the title says it all.
I've been telling this to myself since the week before 2013 end ... so called resolution.
But it's far from practice and enforcement.
there's always excuses, ANY excuses
including most bizarre one : I don't want to waste time sleeping! Still got many things to do.  (Sleeping is definately not a waste of time)

UNTIL
I dozed off (more like passing out) yesterday night due to extreme exhaustion just right after putting ah bi down on tilam. Or I was already nodding off while breastfeeding? I wasn't sure actually.

and I woke up this morning FEELING GOOD 
It (sleeping early, sleeping well, sleeping enough) really does WONDERS.
Although it may not seem 100% possible (at least for me) 
I'll try to get as close as I can. 
This, a promise make to my body who seem to have not slept well since half a decade ago. 
(Even half a decade does feel like a thousand years when not enough sleep ... and I'm hearing 'A thousand years - christina perri' playing in my head.

Here's to GO SLEEP EARLY
Here's to SLEEP WELL, SLEEP SOUND 

would like to do this again

there are many things that I would like to do
but I may need to postpone them till when I'm more available
one of such things : 

those were the days : pen pal'ing

Chinese new year is 2 weeks away, 
and since I'm not working, 
took this opportunity to do spring cleaning / decluttering / overhaul.
and while digging up all my stuff,
I found some 'gems' 

I had forgotten that I've had pen pals.
Evidence showed I've 9 of them. 
And I wonder how on earth was I so free to write during those days (if I remember correctly during upper primary & secondary school).

and my pen pal were from Saudi Arabia(KSA), Nizip-Turkiye, Gaithersburg-USA, Phillipines, Auckland-New Zealand, Roswell GA-USA, & Klang valley. 
However, I couldn't remember how I got them as pen pals during then.

It was sweet but weird at the same time, reading back letters from the past. 
there was once upon a time when I share my time with nice people around the globe ... actually if you ask me where are those places (except Klang valley) on the world map, honestly I couldn't pin point (pardon my bad geography).

Those were the times when we have trust 
trust that our letters are collected from the mail box - post office - transport - recipient (the whole postal system works)
trust that our pen pals will reply 
trust that we are genuine people trying to get to know each other
trust that human relationships needs time and effort to keep.

While tidying this 'stage' of pen-pal'ing of my life,
ah dear say : at this rate, no wonder pack until tomorrow also not yet finish lo...
Haha, in fact yes, I took a whole full day.
I was like that little girl I was, opening each letter from the envelope, reading each letter while trying to remember my pen pals. 
I believe I love them all at that point of time.  (OK, I mean friendship kind of love).

At the end of the session of decluttering my precious mails & greeting cards,
I was happy to relive that moment of my teenage years.
However, I was DISAPPOINTED at one thing.
I was hoping (and hoping) to at least find a love letter (or at least a little love note) in that big pile of letters and cards in that mooncake metal box.
But NONE, not even 1 ... ARGHHHH!!!!

(I guess I just wasn't someone someone will write love letter / love note to ... LOL)

Cut'ted

At last, another round of cutting it short ... my hair, i mean

I guess it's just a matter of time to get it cut for a person like me who :

1. doesn't take care / manage her hair

2. full of white hair (no longer gray hair for my case...haha)

3. hair fall like nobody's business

4. is always in a mess

5. needs a dash of fresh hope ... a fresh cut is like a new beginning 

6. needs some time off to pamper herself 

7. need to have some 烦恼 cut off (i think this could be the very main reason)

ok, so CUT done, so what's next? UNPLUG?

ps. this post isn't a very appropriate post to start 2014 ho? 
this year marked the 10th year into blogging
and shall be a year to redeem myself after a record breaking low no. of posts for 2013.