Reading challenge 2020

 

24 more days before we come to the end of 2020.

24 more days before I'll know whether I'm able to accomplish my reading challenge of reading 20 books for year 2020.

One would have imagine that with the various variation of MCO this year, I shall be able to complete my 2020 reading challenge ... well, let's keep fingers crossed.

I'm burning midnight oil catching up on reading. Haha, don't get me wrong, I'm not reading for the sake of completing this reading challenge. I'm reading because I want to and because it help me to relax. Reading challenge just give me that extra boost and motivation especially when I'm a little lag.

To those who loves to read, let's celebrate the joy of reading this Christmas ...let's spread the love of reading to our younger generation. A book can really open up a child's world. It can do wonders.

Here, a big thank you to local bookstores (ie. Big Bad Wolf, Popular) for bringing us affordable books and enable this reading hobby to prevail. And to a friend, NDC who introduced us to Z Library which help to fuel this reading hobby.

To my children, mama hope the reading seeds I have planted will continue to grow with you and be your support in time of need. 

Rainy season - the good and the not so good

 Rainy season started about 2 weeks ago. I do have a love-hate relationship with it..haha. 

Love it because it's easy to sprout n grow (basically we can just throw any seeds at the ground and it'll start growing). 

Hate it because my laundry never get dried (you know the moist and damp feel on your clothes and no crispy sunshine smell on clothes).

Love it because it's such a nice weather to sleep.

Hate it because it makes me miss my morning walk.

Love it because it reminds me that everything can be as changeable as weather.

Hate it because i start to miss sunshine and doses of vitamin D.

Inadequate

 I sometimes feel inadequate .. that feeling that I'm not good enough. The feeling that if I just didn't do enough. I do not like the feeling of always doubting myself and yet I couldn't seem to be able to get out of it. 

It's pretty tiring to always be in this condition, this mind frame. I'm stuck in a never ending cycle of worry, of self doubt and overwhelmed with responsibilities to make things better. Sigh..so tiring

How do I get out? 

Keep or throw?

I love to write down what I need to do, what I want to do, what plans I have, what treasures I found, what lessons I learnt.

These are my diaries ranging from 2009 to date. They are filled with my dreams, my worries, my sorrow & pain, my happiness, my up & downs and my flats.

Today, as I'm decluttering, I have a difficult choice to make, do I continue keeping them or do I dispose them so I have more space for my new dreams & goals?

These diaries have helped me clear my mind, listen to my worries, reminded me of putting 1st thing 1st, cried & laughed with me. Now that I've moved on to new diaries, should I be like 'kacang lupakan kulit' or do I continue keeping them.

One thing for sure, I'm running out of space. And sadly, I do not have a e-version of the content. I'm a paper & pen kind of person. If I'm to keep, how long more should I keep them? This is not something like our tax receipt where we know die die must keep for 7 years. 

I can't believe I'm having a dilemma over these pages ... sometimes I wonder did I refuse to let go? or was it the past that made the current me...so I'm supposed to treasure them? 

Give me another 48 hours and we shall know their fate .. Good night for now!

Walk...Su...walk

Walking track

Lunch breaks are important to me. 

It allows me to take a breather and get some warmth and Vit D. 

And lately, it allow me to exercise a little after a few hours glue to the chair.

I found a gem (I called it walking track) which allow me to walk and listen to my favourite songs / podcast. This track has allowed me to clock a 2KM walk which is not an easy feat for newbie like me.

Thanks to the virtual walk / run charity drive, it has re-ignited my passion for walking.. just me, the wind and the 'NOW' .. just as relaxing as it could get. 

Now I do really believe that exercise really make our body secrete endorphins (the +'ve feel good hormone) cause I feel happier and tend to worry less after started exercising regularly again.

My next aim is just to continue walking tomorrow. Nothing fancy but it's a great deal :)

captivating performance

One of my fave singer ... this is the 1st song that made me fell in love with her :D

https://youtu.be/QfH8EzQWQdk

Morning walk

To be honest, I want to do it every day but in actual fact, I consider myself lucky if I ever get to do it 2 times a week...haha

It's like the best time of the day ..

• me enjoying some me time, 
• enjoying the cooling fresh air, 
• soaking up the tranquility that allow me to think (or rather not think about anything and just enjoy the present), 
• checking out what plants they have in my neighbourhood and what plants can I add to common vacant area / park. 
• meeting with old folks who exercise more diligent & consistently than me.
• exercise a little sweat a little

Like this week, I told myself to wake up early, go for a walk before I cook simple lunch for lunch @ office. Ended up I snoozed my alarm clock for the 2nd or 3rd time with just enough time to do fried rice. I guess the problem is with me..not enough will power and just plain lazy...blame it on the lack of sleep people suffer nowadays due to the stress technology brought us. 

Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against technology (well, maybe a little due to the stress it brings and that it make people a lot more impatient). 

Got to go ... else how am i going to wake up for my morning walk tomorrow? 

如果有一天 - meaningful reminder to myself

CY shared this song in our group and the lyrics caught my heart. Such meaningful lyrics

Sharing it here so I can come back here to remind myself when I'm down.

The lyrics

如果有一天 刘德华 如果有一天 汽车与飞机转眼再不足够 别害怕 你拥有的天赋的一对双脚伴你可漫游 如果有一天 你屋里傢俬一旦再不拥有 别害怕 那温暖的家里的成员欢笑伴你于床头 心乐透 人的快乐 在乎学晓等候 命里不归于你 你便毅然地放开手 越抱着只会越嬲 知足一世你便富有 人善天不欺 简单一个道理 怎么不看透 任君多美丽富裕 在最后平头 每种因果是有天修 人善天不欺 你懂得以后 掌握心中节奏 只要食得落 睡得好 天天里笑得开口 便已足够 人的快乐 在乎学晓等候 命里不归于你 你便毅然地放开手 越抱着只会越嬲 知足一世你便富有 人善天不欺 简单一个道理 怎么不看透 任君多美丽富裕 在最后平头 每种因果是有天修 人善天不欺 你懂得以后 掌握心中节奏 只要食得落 睡得好 天天里笑得开口 就已足够 人善天不欺 简单一个道理 怎么竟不看透 任君多美丽富裕 在最后平头 每种因果是有天修 人善天不欺 你懂得以后 掌握心中节奏 只要食得落 睡得好 天天里笑得开口 便已足够 如果有一天 战争与饥荒充斥全个地球 别害怕 你心我心手与手连成一线 为你可分忧 好朋友

things during MCO

There are things only we can experience during MCO  (movement control order).

Such as empty streets, empty roads, empty train station & empty train at 9pm ...

and thinking back, wth am I doing there at that time? It was really dangerous.

And now as we return to new normal ... we just got further and further from the train station every morning. 

Last week, we got so far that the train station was hardly in sight. 

Or maybe it's just my bad eyesight .. ;p