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Source : goodyfoodies.blogspot.com
something as simple as stir fry asparagus prawn & scallop .... heavenly ...
Thursday, August 08, 2013
currently craving
Source : goodyfoodies.blogspot.com
something as simple as stir fry asparagus prawn & scallop .... heavenly ...
Saturday, August 03, 2013
a fright in the afternoon
My Fridays seem to be quite exciting and unpredictable these days.
After a scare on the previous previous friday morning,
I had another fright yesterday afternoon.
If you happen to pass by the office building where I work ...
you may be one of the many by-passers who wonder what are they offering at this building... why are there so many people queuing up since early morning?
Welcome to my daily routine ... which include queue'ing and waiting for lift in the peak hours like morning & lunch time.
I've tried queueing for about 30 minutes to 40 minutes just to get to my floor.
I would have like many others chosen to just take a morning climb up the stairs if not for my current condition.
Back to the afternoon fright.
Out of the 4 lifts available for a 21-floors building, I was 'lucky' to have chosen the 'chosen' one.
The lift was packed like usual and after dropping some lift passengers on the 7th floor,
the lift door closed,
the lift start to black out,
the lift floor button indicator goes off, (no matter which button you press)
the lift stop abruptly,
and 4 ladies inside started standing at 4 corners of the lift.
I was at the left upper corner of the rectangular box.
We are trapped in the lift.
It was my 1st time. Everyone was asking everyone if everyone is alright.
The malay lady standing near the buttons started pressing the bell for help.
(btw, the building management and security guards are famous for their very slow if not non-action)
Perhaps from watching too much movies, I started having thoughts of free-falling lift. (eexperience of some colleagues who wrote to top managements about falling lifts doesn't help either).
And another lady kept telling us to bend our knees to lessen the impact in case it really happen.
Free-falling lift is risky for condition like me ...
Perhaps my little one inside could sense my anxiety that I could feel ah bi moving actively.
It was time like this, I feel handphones are god-sent.
Everyone trapped started calling our colleagues to inform the building management aka. security guards (although we know it may take some time).
I managed to call a colleague of mine.
I guessed it helped with my current condition, everyone say we need urgent help as there's someone with 'big belly' trapped inside.
Of course, my second-to-contact is ah dear...although I knew there's nothing much he can do. But the line wasn't getting through so I ended up sending him a sms...
At 1st I was alright and steady.
However, as time goes by, I started to feel my legs getting tired so I sat down.
It was ok at 1st but as time goes by, I think it got a little stuffier. (not sure whether real or psychological though).
We continue pressing the bell but nobody came.
My colleague couldn't get through my line so she sms telling us the guards are checking.
We waited for about 20 minutes ... it was when one of the lady say perhaps we should try pulling open the door. She mentioned that's how her male colleagues do it.
the 3 of them with all their strength tried opening the lift door, i wasn't allowed to help.
After a few attempts, they managed to slice open a thin line between the lift doors, and lucky we were not too far away from the 8th floor - floor.
It was really a relief. With a little help, we got out of the lift.
Thank god we are all alright.
(well, i did manage to speak to ah dear when we are out from the malfunctioned lift, he said not to worry, as even if no electricity, the lift will clamp itself secure and under normal circumstances will not free-fall)
Perhaps this is another reason I dread going to work ... and that's it's time for me to move on... haha
After a scare on the previous previous friday morning,
I had another fright yesterday afternoon.
If you happen to pass by the office building where I work ...
you may be one of the many by-passers who wonder what are they offering at this building... why are there so many people queuing up since early morning?
Welcome to my daily routine ... which include queue'ing and waiting for lift in the peak hours like morning & lunch time.
I've tried queueing for about 30 minutes to 40 minutes just to get to my floor.
I would have like many others chosen to just take a morning climb up the stairs if not for my current condition.
Back to the afternoon fright.
Out of the 4 lifts available for a 21-floors building, I was 'lucky' to have chosen the 'chosen' one.
The lift was packed like usual and after dropping some lift passengers on the 7th floor,
the lift door closed,
the lift start to black out,
the lift floor button indicator goes off, (no matter which button you press)
the lift stop abruptly,
and 4 ladies inside started standing at 4 corners of the lift.
I was at the left upper corner of the rectangular box.
We are trapped in the lift.
It was my 1st time. Everyone was asking everyone if everyone is alright.
The malay lady standing near the buttons started pressing the bell for help.
(btw, the building management and security guards are famous for their very slow if not non-action)
Perhaps from watching too much movies, I started having thoughts of free-falling lift. (eexperience of some colleagues who wrote to top managements about falling lifts doesn't help either).
And another lady kept telling us to bend our knees to lessen the impact in case it really happen.
Free-falling lift is risky for condition like me ...
Perhaps my little one inside could sense my anxiety that I could feel ah bi moving actively.
It was time like this, I feel handphones are god-sent.
Everyone trapped started calling our colleagues to inform the building management aka. security guards (although we know it may take some time).
I managed to call a colleague of mine.
I guessed it helped with my current condition, everyone say we need urgent help as there's someone with 'big belly' trapped inside.
Of course, my second-to-contact is ah dear...although I knew there's nothing much he can do. But the line wasn't getting through so I ended up sending him a sms...
At 1st I was alright and steady.
However, as time goes by, I started to feel my legs getting tired so I sat down.
It was ok at 1st but as time goes by, I think it got a little stuffier. (not sure whether real or psychological though).
We continue pressing the bell but nobody came.
My colleague couldn't get through my line so she sms telling us the guards are checking.
We waited for about 20 minutes ... it was when one of the lady say perhaps we should try pulling open the door. She mentioned that's how her male colleagues do it.
the 3 of them with all their strength tried opening the lift door, i wasn't allowed to help.
After a few attempts, they managed to slice open a thin line between the lift doors, and lucky we were not too far away from the 8th floor - floor.
It was really a relief. With a little help, we got out of the lift.
Thank god we are all alright.
(well, i did manage to speak to ah dear when we are out from the malfunctioned lift, he said not to worry, as even if no electricity, the lift will clamp itself secure and under normal circumstances will not free-fall)
Perhaps this is another reason I dread going to work ... and that's it's time for me to move on... haha
Saturday, July 20, 2013
a scare in the morning
yesterday morning I had a big scare.
Over the past few years, I did have fainting spells but
I would rate this morning black out as 2nd (if not 3rd scariest)
The scariest was the morning after my second ah bi delivery @ the hospital delivery ward toilet (the lucky thing I'm in a hospital and other mothers at the toilet called help for me). the next thing I know after the black out was I was being wheeled by 3 nurses back to my bed and had doctors checking on me and nurses busy taking my blood pressure every 5 to 10 minutes.
The other scary incident was fainting in LRT. Lucky thing during then was it was during morning peak hours and have someone who knows me in the LRT and we were near the station our station. A good samaritan even took trouble to buy me roti krim and mineral water.
Yesterday morning, it was scary because I was alone with 2 little ones.
1 still sleeping inside the room and another inside me. Dear was outstation.
I felt dizzy when I woke up but instead of sitting at the bed to rest, I stubbornly stood and walk to the door (in my effort not to wake little one sleeping on the bed so that I can wash and prepare myself in peace).
Things happened so fast after that.
I closed the room door and blacked out. I can feel myself falling like blocks of wood on the floor with a 'thump'. Everything went black for a few seconds I think.
The next thing I knew was I was lying on the floor and force myself to breathe to get in more oxgygen for my brain and especially little one inside.
Lucky I'm still at the door (which is just a few steps away from the stairs) and not at the stairway.
I sat there stunted not knowing what has happened and dare not know what will happen if I don't wake up from then. I'm thankful I'm still here.
This morning I woke up feeling aches on my left upper arm and body, most probably impact from the black out fall yesterday.
Lessons learnt : If feeling faint / not well, it's better to stay put and rest / recover 1st, instead of acting like a hero.
Over the past few years, I did have fainting spells but
I would rate this morning black out as 2nd (if not 3rd scariest)
The scariest was the morning after my second ah bi delivery @ the hospital delivery ward toilet (the lucky thing I'm in a hospital and other mothers at the toilet called help for me). the next thing I know after the black out was I was being wheeled by 3 nurses back to my bed and had doctors checking on me and nurses busy taking my blood pressure every 5 to 10 minutes.
The other scary incident was fainting in LRT. Lucky thing during then was it was during morning peak hours and have someone who knows me in the LRT and we were near the station our station. A good samaritan even took trouble to buy me roti krim and mineral water.
Yesterday morning, it was scary because I was alone with 2 little ones.
1 still sleeping inside the room and another inside me. Dear was outstation.
I felt dizzy when I woke up but instead of sitting at the bed to rest, I stubbornly stood and walk to the door (in my effort not to wake little one sleeping on the bed so that I can wash and prepare myself in peace).
Things happened so fast after that.
I closed the room door and blacked out. I can feel myself falling like blocks of wood on the floor with a 'thump'. Everything went black for a few seconds I think.
The next thing I knew was I was lying on the floor and force myself to breathe to get in more oxgygen for my brain and especially little one inside.
Lucky I'm still at the door (which is just a few steps away from the stairs) and not at the stairway.
I sat there stunted not knowing what has happened and dare not know what will happen if I don't wake up from then. I'm thankful I'm still here.
This morning I woke up feeling aches on my left upper arm and body, most probably impact from the black out fall yesterday.
Lessons learnt : If feeling faint / not well, it's better to stay put and rest / recover 1st, instead of acting like a hero.
Friday, July 12, 2013
they reminded me that ...
@ work, fingers have been pointing, accusations have been hurling around when system errors occur after the major project cutover.
that day the elder one told me he love me and offered to help me wash the dishes (all of sudden) and later that afternoon he helped me fold most of his own and sister clothes.
Being a tester, we are most of the time the most vulnerable group irregardless of whether you have done your due diligence.
To avoid further unnecessary stress, I decided to just let those pointed and hurled at me to take place without struggling to put up any defense.
It was after all very meaningless to me.
However, to say that I'm not affected at all is telling a big fat lie through my teeth.
Somehow God decided to remind me that admidst all the 'you have not done .... / you have done it wrong' that have been hurled towards me, that Saturday, through my ah bi(s) I was reminded that ....
perhaps I've done something really important ... something that matter more ...
that day the elder one told me he love me and offered to help me wash the dishes (all of sudden) and later that afternoon he helped me fold most of his own and sister clothes.
In case you're wondering how they reach the sink, look at the 2 fella tip toeing.
I was happy when he told me he love me, happier when he offered to help me wash the dishes, happiest when he solved his own problem (taking the stool when he can't reach the running water) and the little one followed his example.
(and to satisfy your curiousity, no, they didn't thoroughly rinse all the soap from the kitchen utensils ...haha, but to me they are already doing a great job =)
* ps. sorry for the exposed skins, she was getting ready to take bath when she decided to join the fun.
Maybe after all, I'm not as bad as what they say.
and that I now know very clearly that I live for myself ...
Monday, July 08, 2013
lucky i still have u
For the past few weeks & months, life has not been easy for me.
work wise also very bumpy, so much so that I feel like giving up because it's affecting me health wise.
But lucky I still have you ..
who's still there for me even when I show my ugly dark side
who try to cheer me up when I hit the bottom
who tell me things that I refuse to listen and let me see things that I couldn't see through
thank you for the sewing machine and little radio which allow me to seek comfort.
We will together little by little make our effort build our little home sweet home ... even if it's a little brick a day.
work wise also very bumpy, so much so that I feel like giving up because it's affecting me health wise.
But lucky I still have you ..
who's still there for me even when I show my ugly dark side
who try to cheer me up when I hit the bottom
who tell me things that I refuse to listen and let me see things that I couldn't see through
thank you for the sewing machine and little radio which allow me to seek comfort.
We will together little by little make our effort build our little home sweet home ... even if it's a little brick a day.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
不再让你孤单
Just finished watching this movie... after a few sittings. (I seldom get to finish a movie in 1 sitting..hehe)
Titled 'a beautiful life' in English .. directed by Andrew Lau, staring Liu Ye & Shu Qi.
this is a touching movie which tell tales about love and life of normal people just like you and me.
Monday, May 27, 2013
slowly coming back
sorry for the long hiatus.
I'm learning to cope with life.
Things expected and unexpected happen and I'm taking them one at a time.
Now I know it really doesn't take alot for me to be happy.
I just want to live a simple life.
I'm learning to cope with life.
Things expected and unexpected happen and I'm taking them one at a time.
Now I know it really doesn't take alot for me to be happy.
I just want to live a simple life.
Sunday, March 17, 2013
children do learn from their parents
In my effort to inculcate independence in my kiddies, I have the tendency to encourage them to reach or to get their things on their own.
For instance, when they want (or I want them) to drink water, I'll tell them go to take their own water bottle and if they don't remember where they left it, I'll tell them to try and look for it themselves. The same goes for their potty or any other stuff that's within their reach.
However, the other day, I got a taste of my own medicine.
I was laying down and needed help from my elder one to help pass me my water bottle which was a few feet away from me.
And so I asked nicely : (Name)(name), can you help mama take mama water bottle there please. Thank you. (pointing at the direction of the water bottle).
and I do get a very nice reply : mama, mama need to learn to do things yourself. Mama, you can do it.
I still feeling lazy to wake up so I say : mama need (name) help cause mama not well, pain pain cannot stand up but mama thirsty and need to drink water.
He then asked me : Mama where pain pain? (like I always ask him when he's not well)
I lied : mama leg pain pain
So he went to grab my water bottle, passed it to me and said : mama you drink more water, then no more pain pain (just like I always tell him to drink more water so got no more sick).
I said : Thank you very much (name) for being helpful. Now, you go take your own bottle and drink together with mama, can?
I was lucky that he obliged and didn't use the 'reason' I used back on me.
This incident made me realized that children, they really learn alot from what you DO as opposed to what you PREACH.
As parents we are always being 'WATCHED' so we should try our best to lead by good example.
For instance, when they want (or I want them) to drink water, I'll tell them go to take their own water bottle and if they don't remember where they left it, I'll tell them to try and look for it themselves. The same goes for their potty or any other stuff that's within their reach.
However, the other day, I got a taste of my own medicine.
I was laying down and needed help from my elder one to help pass me my water bottle which was a few feet away from me.
And so I asked nicely : (Name)(name), can you help mama take mama water bottle there please. Thank you. (pointing at the direction of the water bottle).
and I do get a very nice reply : mama, mama need to learn to do things yourself. Mama, you can do it.
I still feeling lazy to wake up so I say : mama need (name) help cause mama not well, pain pain cannot stand up but mama thirsty and need to drink water.
He then asked me : Mama where pain pain? (like I always ask him when he's not well)
I lied : mama leg pain pain
So he went to grab my water bottle, passed it to me and said : mama you drink more water, then no more pain pain (just like I always tell him to drink more water so got no more sick).
I said : Thank you very much (name) for being helpful. Now, you go take your own bottle and drink together with mama, can?
I was lucky that he obliged and didn't use the 'reason' I used back on me.
This incident made me realized that children, they really learn alot from what you DO as opposed to what you PREACH.
As parents we are always being 'WATCHED' so we should try our best to lead by good example.
Saturday, February 09, 2013
新少林寺主題曲 -- 悟 劉德華
This movie is showing on tv this coming CNY.
I remembered watching it during confinement and like the theme song.
I remembered watching it during confinement and like the theme song.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
'never bring eye' walking
Something happened to me this morning.
After dropping my little one off to kindergarten, I walked STRAIGHT into a wall pillar.
Things were happening too fast so much so that I didn't realized what happened at that particular moment.
All of a sudden, I feel my head and knee banged hard on something. I felt my head vibrate and my teeth shaking. It was so hard that I moved backward due to the impact.
And my initial reaction was not to look back at where the teachers are but just run straight towards dear's car.
It was so so embarrassing.
If the teacher saw, they would have thought : how la this mother look after her kid if herself so clumsy??
As soon as I got into the car, i broke out in LAUGHTER.
Suddenly I WOKE UP.
Ah dear say he couldn't understand how I can walk into a pillar. And that I couldn't even focus even when I'm walking.
Actually what he said was partially true also lah... cause I was actually smiling to an old lady (who I presume helping at the kindy) when I bang into that lucky pillar.
I ended up with a big 'hong mou lao' on my forehead plus scratched right knee and hands despite my best away to rub away the blue back and clean the knee and hands with the ubat kuning. (Lucky ah dear has a mini first aid box in his car).
And I had some great de-stressing laughing time when colleagues started asking me about the 'hong mou lao' on my forehead.
ps. will update the photo after transfer from phone...haha
After dropping my little one off to kindergarten, I walked STRAIGHT into a wall pillar.
Things were happening too fast so much so that I didn't realized what happened at that particular moment.
All of a sudden, I feel my head and knee banged hard on something. I felt my head vibrate and my teeth shaking. It was so hard that I moved backward due to the impact.
And my initial reaction was not to look back at where the teachers are but just run straight towards dear's car.
It was so so embarrassing.
If the teacher saw, they would have thought : how la this mother look after her kid if herself so clumsy??
As soon as I got into the car, i broke out in LAUGHTER.
Suddenly I WOKE UP.
Ah dear say he couldn't understand how I can walk into a pillar. And that I couldn't even focus even when I'm walking.
Actually what he said was partially true also lah... cause I was actually smiling to an old lady (who I presume helping at the kindy) when I bang into that lucky pillar.
I ended up with a big 'hong mou lao' on my forehead plus scratched right knee and hands despite my best away to rub away the blue back and clean the knee and hands with the ubat kuning. (Lucky ah dear has a mini first aid box in his car).
And I had some great de-stressing laughing time when colleagues started asking me about the 'hong mou lao' on my forehead.
ps. will update the photo after transfer from phone...haha
Monday, January 21, 2013
49 days
I've just finished watching 49 days (the korean drama series)
ps. On a lighter mood, I think Han Kang in the series is good looking...haha
and couldn't help but remember the 7*7 49 days after my mother left us.
The circumstances were different but until today we (my family), we couldn't find any explanation for strange things that happened during 头7 and the remaining 35 days.
ps. On a lighter mood, I think Han Kang in the series is good looking...haha
Thursday, January 10, 2013
de-clutter
Managed to de-clutter my home fridge and freezer and my office desk within 10 days into 2013 ... I feel liberated.
Didn't know that de-cluttering can help me feel good =)
So, more de-cluttering I've lined up for myself this year ... coincidentally a good time too before chinese new year.
perhaps since I'm gaining momentum, it's good time to start de-cluttering my life too ...
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
unwinding
there were tears and all but isn't that part of growing up?
Here, we took him & the little one to the playground for a relaxing unwinding moment (read : to let off steam)
In case you're wondering, we are building a bird nest for the made-believed homeless bird (luckily he buy the story ... thanks to mama who tell lies without blinking eyes...haha)
Monday, January 07, 2013
midnight book shopping
1st time experience midnight book shopping towards end of 2012 ...
thanks to a group of friends who asked me along for BBW (big bad wolf) '63-hour frenzy' where they open non-stop for 63 hour @ MIECC
It was a pleasant experience shopping for books at very low prices on a relaxing friday night ... the cool night air seem to make people feel at ease.
Thanks to Keef - for helping us hunt for our 'to-buy-list' when she was there earlier =)
Thanks to CY, FL, NDC for asking me along, helping me to control my spending and maximize my savings,for sacrificing sleep (especially for NDC who's to drive 6.30am the same morning)
my loots for sharing :)
thanks to a group of friends who asked me along for BBW (big bad wolf) '63-hour frenzy' where they open non-stop for 63 hour @ MIECC
It was a pleasant experience shopping for books at very low prices on a relaxing friday night ... the cool night air seem to make people feel at ease.
Thanks to Keef - for helping us hunt for our 'to-buy-list' when she was there earlier =)
Thanks to CY, FL, NDC for asking me along, helping me to control my spending and maximize my savings,for sacrificing sleep (especially for NDC who's to drive 6.30am the same morning)
my loots for sharing :)
Saturday, January 05, 2013
neither here nor there
neither here nor there ... that's how I would describe my crawl over from 2012 to 2013.
A few years lately, I seemed to have hangover effect in my attempt to transit from a previous year to a newer year.
I seemed to be in a 'buffer' in between the adjacent years.
the transition this time is no difference.
I'm still too lazy to think about 2012 yet...
but 2013 came knocking on my door ... asking me to face the brave new world regardless whether I'm willing or not.
there are 360 more days to go
yet I felt as though I've run for 360 days non-stop.
well, enough of lamenting.
it's time to wake up ... come 2013 there shall be more opportunities, more room for improvement, more chances.
what a negative post to start of the year
just let me rant for this last time before I leave my 'buffer' tougher.
A few years lately, I seemed to have hangover effect in my attempt to transit from a previous year to a newer year.
I seemed to be in a 'buffer' in between the adjacent years.
the transition this time is no difference.
I'm still too lazy to think about 2012 yet...
but 2013 came knocking on my door ... asking me to face the brave new world regardless whether I'm willing or not.
there are 360 more days to go
yet I felt as though I've run for 360 days non-stop.
well, enough of lamenting.
it's time to wake up ... come 2013 there shall be more opportunities, more room for improvement, more chances.
what a negative post to start of the year
just let me rant for this last time before I leave my 'buffer' tougher.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
i've missed the boat...so how?
here I am, posting a day after the once in a lifetime 12.12.12
so how?
I'll say 'Go on with life' ... sometimes we do missed the boat.
And this is one of the many occasions.
looking back, yesterday @ 12:12:12pm, I was extracting milk for my little girl.
I'm glad that was what I was doing instead of stressing myself up with no-where-near-complete work.
for whatever come may,
I'm happy I spent time (at last after 2 months of procrastination) letting my little boy picking the photos he would like to put in the photo frames at home. And we had a good time decorating our home with those photos.
Seeing little boy helped papa putting together the simple wooden rack we got from IKEA makes my heart smile.
We may not know when it will all end ...
but hopefully we are able to do what we can and what we think is best for us and our loved ones.
so how?
I'll say 'Go on with life' ... sometimes we do missed the boat.
And this is one of the many occasions.
looking back, yesterday @ 12:12:12pm, I was extracting milk for my little girl.
I'm glad that was what I was doing instead of stressing myself up with no-where-near-complete work.
for whatever come may,
I'm happy I spent time (at last after 2 months of procrastination) letting my little boy picking the photos he would like to put in the photo frames at home. And we had a good time decorating our home with those photos.
Seeing little boy helped papa putting together the simple wooden rack we got from IKEA makes my heart smile.
We may not know when it will all end ...
but hopefully we are able to do what we can and what we think is best for us and our loved ones.
Monday, November 12, 2012
童年
the good ool times ...
I wish I could let my children experience their 童年 as much as possible too, rather than being caught up in the competitive rat race..
《童年》 歌词
池塘边的榕树上
知了在声声地叫着夏天
操场边的秋千上
只有蝴蝶儿停在上面
黑板上老师的粉笔
还在拼命唧唧喳喳写个不停
等待着下课
等待着放学
等待游戏的童年
福利社里面什么都有
就是口袋里没有半毛钱
诸葛四郎和魔鬼党
到底谁抢到那支宝剑
隔壁班的那个男孩
怎么还没经过我的窗前
嘴里的零食
手里的漫画
心里初恋的童年
总是要等到睡觉前
才知道功课只做了一点点
总是要等到考试以后
才知道该念的书还没有念
一寸光阴一寸金
老师说过寸金难买寸光阴
一天又一天一年又一年
迷迷糊糊的童年
没有人知道为什么
太阳总下到山的那一边
没有人能够告诉我
山里面有没有住着神仙
多少的日子里总是
一个人面对着天空发呆
就这么好奇
就这么幻想
这么孤单的童年
阳光下蜻蜓飞过来
一片片绿油油的稻田
水彩蜡笔和万花筒
画不出一边那一条彩虹
什么时候才能象高年级的同学
有张成熟与长大的脸
盼望着假期盼望着明天
盼望着长大的童年
一天又一天一年又一年
盼望长大的童年
I wish I could let my children experience their 童年 as much as possible too, rather than being caught up in the competitive rat race..
《童年》 歌词
池塘边的榕树上
知了在声声地叫着夏天
操场边的秋千上
只有蝴蝶儿停在上面
黑板上老师的粉笔
还在拼命唧唧喳喳写个不停
等待着下课
等待着放学
等待游戏的童年
福利社里面什么都有
就是口袋里没有半毛钱
诸葛四郎和魔鬼党
到底谁抢到那支宝剑
隔壁班的那个男孩
怎么还没经过我的窗前
嘴里的零食
手里的漫画
心里初恋的童年
总是要等到睡觉前
才知道功课只做了一点点
总是要等到考试以后
才知道该念的书还没有念
一寸光阴一寸金
老师说过寸金难买寸光阴
一天又一天一年又一年
迷迷糊糊的童年
没有人知道为什么
太阳总下到山的那一边
没有人能够告诉我
山里面有没有住着神仙
多少的日子里总是
一个人面对着天空发呆
就这么好奇
就这么幻想
这么孤单的童年
阳光下蜻蜓飞过来
一片片绿油油的稻田
水彩蜡笔和万花筒
画不出一边那一条彩虹
什么时候才能象高年级的同学
有张成熟与长大的脸
盼望着假期盼望着明天
盼望着长大的童年
一天又一天一年又一年
盼望长大的童年
Thursday, November 08, 2012
Seriously, I need a break
Life @ work has been hectic and taxing for me for the past few months...
so much so that it has spill over effect over my life @ home.
I've a feeling that I'm running and running non-stop with no finishing line in sight.
I want to stop and rest but I couldn't.
I want to just slow down but I wasn't allowed to.
I think the only time I really will get to rest is when the time comes (you know, the bucket kicking time).
I'm really really tired ...
Seriously, I need a break or I might just break.
so much so that it has spill over effect over my life @ home.
I've a feeling that I'm running and running non-stop with no finishing line in sight.
I want to stop and rest but I couldn't.
I want to just slow down but I wasn't allowed to.
I think the only time I really will get to rest is when the time comes (you know, the bucket kicking time).
I'm really really tired ...
Seriously, I need a break or I might just break.
Sunday, November 04, 2012
12星座女生最在意情人什麼
Let's take a break with something light =)
【12星座女生最在意情人什麼】
【12星座女生最在意情人什麼】
白羊座
白羊女生最在意情人夠不夠性格、有沒有個性，軟弱沒主見的男生，
金牛座
金牛女生最在意老公有沒有認真、老實，就算對方很有錢，如果是花
雙子座
雙子女生最在乎情人的臨場反應，越聰明伶俐，越容易引起雙子女生
巨蟹座
巨蟹女生只要對方認真踏實，其他的通通可以不管。事實上，巨蟹女
獅子座
獅子女生要自己的男
朋友，至少有一兩樣事情，可以「端上檯面」。要不就是有錢、要不就是
處女座
凡是認真到有點過頭的處女座女生，什麼事都很在意，結果最後很容
天秤座
天秤座女生好像最在意外表，挑帥哥來當男朋友。但事實上，她還希
天蠍座
天蠍女生會最在意對方是否忠貞、誠實。此外，她也希望對方有與眾
射手座
射手女生喜歡個性爽朗的男生，對她們來說開朗最重要，陰陰沈沈的
摩羯座
十八歲以前的摩羯女生，只在意男友是否老實。十八歲後的摩羯女生
水瓶座
水瓶女生在意的事很多，要頭腦靈活、不讓她覺得悶，又要溫柔體貼
雙魚座
對情人要求最少的恐怕就是雙魚，她們往往閉著眼睛談戀愛，反正愛
白羊女生最在意情人夠不夠性格、有沒有個性，軟弱沒主見的男生，
金牛座
金牛女生最在意老公有沒有認真、老實，就算對方很有錢，如果是花
雙子座
雙子女生最在乎情人的臨場反應，越聰明伶俐，越容易引起雙子女生
巨蟹座
巨蟹女生只要對方認真踏實，其他的通通可以不管。事實上，巨蟹女
獅子座
獅子女生要自己的男
朋友，至少有一兩樣事情，可以「端上檯面」。要不就是有錢、要不就是
處女座
凡是認真到有點過頭的處女座女生，什麼事都很在意，結果最後很容
天秤座
天秤座女生好像最在意外表，挑帥哥來當男朋友。但事實上，她還希
天蠍座
天蠍女生會最在意對方是否忠貞、誠實。此外，她也希望對方有與眾
射手座
射手女生喜歡個性爽朗的男生，對她們來說開朗最重要，陰陰沈沈的
摩羯座
十八歲以前的摩羯女生，只在意男友是否老實。十八歲後的摩羯女生
水瓶座
水瓶女生在意的事很多，要頭腦靈活、不讓她覺得悶，又要溫柔體貼
雙魚座
對情人要求最少的恐怕就是雙魚，她們往往閉著眼睛談戀愛，反正愛
Thursday, November 01, 2012
today 1 year ago (part 2)
Arriving at the O&G, I approach the nurses at the counter. I bet I doesn't look like someone who's in labour.
I told them I have slight bleeding. They asked if it's alot. I wanted to show them the photograph I took this morning but they were not interested...haha. (I took photo with my phone cause I may not know how to explain the 'patch').
The nurses helped me with the registration and while waiting to be called in for examination, I needed to go toilet. The toilet there cannot be locked. I'm not too sure whether the lock was spoilt or it was intentionally not to be locked just in case of emergency.
My name was called and I was lead to a examination room.
There, they asked me some questions and looked through my file. I was then asked to lay down for them to attach fetal monitoring device to track baby's heartbeat and contractions.
To be honest, I think I have a little phobia of the fetal monitoring ... it reminded me of my experience with my little boy. His heartbeat dropped from 140+ to 70+ for 2 times or more(I couldn't remember clearly) and the machine keep making the 'ti ti ti ti ti' alert sound. Everyone is rushing around me. All I could think of at that moment was I'll just agree to anything as long as my baby is safe.
Back to here. So, they monitored me for 30 minutes or so.
Baby heartbeat ok. The contractions were interesting. I could see the readings go higher and higher each time I have contractions and they were once every 15min - 20min with a few braxton hicks contractions that come 5-10 minutes apart . The doctor on duty was a female chinese doctor. She was gentle when performing VE (VE = vaginal examination to determine how dilated is our cervix in preparation for childbirth).
After all the monitoring and checking, the findings :
contractions were pretty consistent but I'm only 1cm dilated.
So nothing can be done except to be sent home. We were advised no need to come in unless heavy bleeding, water bag leaking, or lack of fetal movement.
Else, I'm to come in again to be induced a week later (due to gestational diabetes, they do not allow me to go way past my EDD : estimated due date).
So I'm all relieved, telling dear that I can still have coconut drink. I even told him that it could be days before the actual delivery. My colleague who gave birth 2 weeks before me had to wait 4 days (from 1cm dilation) before the actual delivery.
That saturday night, knowing it could be my last saturday pasar malam trip before I give birth, I insisted to go jalan jalan and buy all the foods that I wanted to eat.
By then, I was feeling quite tired with the contractions and back pain. Looking back, I wondered where the hell have I got so much energy.
That night I still managed to catch some sleep after some gym ball session. Woke up a few times to go to the toilet but I forced myself to sleep back.
I have no idea why but I seemed not to remember very well the night - the last night I'm able to have a full sleep. Because from then on, my nights / sleep were always broken into a few session not a single long sleep...
It's also funny how near I'm to delivery and yet still refused to accept the reality. I still have not finish packing my hospital bag (read : refused to pack)
to be continued...
I told them I have slight bleeding. They asked if it's alot. I wanted to show them the photograph I took this morning but they were not interested...haha. (I took photo with my phone cause I may not know how to explain the 'patch').
The nurses helped me with the registration and while waiting to be called in for examination, I needed to go toilet. The toilet there cannot be locked. I'm not too sure whether the lock was spoilt or it was intentionally not to be locked just in case of emergency.
My name was called and I was lead to a examination room.
There, they asked me some questions and looked through my file. I was then asked to lay down for them to attach fetal monitoring device to track baby's heartbeat and contractions.
To be honest, I think I have a little phobia of the fetal monitoring ... it reminded me of my experience with my little boy. His heartbeat dropped from 140+ to 70+ for 2 times or more(I couldn't remember clearly) and the machine keep making the 'ti ti ti ti ti' alert sound. Everyone is rushing around me. All I could think of at that moment was I'll just agree to anything as long as my baby is safe.
Back to here. So, they monitored me for 30 minutes or so.
Baby heartbeat ok. The contractions were interesting. I could see the readings go higher and higher each time I have contractions and they were once every 15min - 20min with a few braxton hicks contractions that come 5-10 minutes apart . The doctor on duty was a female chinese doctor. She was gentle when performing VE (VE = vaginal examination to determine how dilated is our cervix in preparation for childbirth).
After all the monitoring and checking, the findings :
contractions were pretty consistent but I'm only 1cm dilated.
So nothing can be done except to be sent home. We were advised no need to come in unless heavy bleeding, water bag leaking, or lack of fetal movement.
Else, I'm to come in again to be induced a week later (due to gestational diabetes, they do not allow me to go way past my EDD : estimated due date).
So I'm all relieved, telling dear that I can still have coconut drink. I even told him that it could be days before the actual delivery. My colleague who gave birth 2 weeks before me had to wait 4 days (from 1cm dilation) before the actual delivery.
That saturday night, knowing it could be my last saturday pasar malam trip before I give birth, I insisted to go jalan jalan and buy all the foods that I wanted to eat.
By then, I was feeling quite tired with the contractions and back pain. Looking back, I wondered where the hell have I got so much energy.
That night I still managed to catch some sleep after some gym ball session. Woke up a few times to go to the toilet but I forced myself to sleep back.
I have no idea why but I seemed not to remember very well the night - the last night I'm able to have a full sleep. Because from then on, my nights / sleep were always broken into a few session not a single long sleep...
It's also funny how near I'm to delivery and yet still refused to accept the reality. I still have not finish packing my hospital bag (read : refused to pack)
to be continued...
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