if only I can

here I'm sitting at the dining table of a balinese style home in Malacca, enjoying the night after ah bi and ah dear sleep. It's raining outside which makes it more 'in the mood'.

This is a retirement home dream come true ... and it makes me ponder whether can I have a comfortable retirement to start with...what more a retirement home.

I do not know when and I do not know how but I do know that as times goes by, my dreams seem to be getting smaller and smaller. My request towards life seem to be simpler and simpler and based on what matter most instead.
Is it just me or does any of you share the same sentiment?

meanwhile, I better grab some of life's luxury ... sleeping (oh, I consider sleeping a luxury these days

I'm disoriented now...20 straight hours of no sleep

I'm disoriented now .... feel like in another dimension.
20 straight hours of no sleep, although not as terrific as last time during schooling times .... the body is so much older now.
Plus the toll of producing 'food' for my little boss ... the body is deteoriating very fast ... prematurely ageing.

I just need to get some good night rest (which currently not so possible due to night feeds) ... but why do I keep on not wanting to sleep and wanting to do as much as I can? when I'm already so disorientated? This is very bad...detrimental to my body and health. I just sometimes wonder whether my body has mind on its own instead of following what my brain says....or my brain has multiple personalities disorder?

all done except testing 123

up this morning since 4am++ but till now has only managed to test 30% ... still waiting for instruction to proceed further.
meanwhile I've :
1. confirm some online purchase (not related to testing)
2. make payment via fund transfer (not related to testing)
3. go to 'loo' to settle big business
4. watched almost 3/4 of a korean drama series (Full House) ... yes, I'm watching it only NOW.
5. paid my water & electric bills
6. read a couple pages of magazine
7. folded a few pieces of clothes
8. boiled a kettle of water
9. updated my blog
10. ate a few biscuits.
11. been wondering why I've done so much except doing what I woke up for.

and if they don't let me fast fast continue :
1. my little boss is going to ask for food already
2. I'm due to prepare myself to attend EQ@work training for 2 days before Wesak Day ...alamak, I forgot to put out of office msg ah...sure ppl will be cursing me for not replying their emails...

put to good use

remember I had a story about how much I love colouring even at this age ... and how it sort of relaxes me.

well, other than the post, I didn't dare to tell anyone until .....

a colleague of mine who's organising a party at work for birthday boys n girls for Jan - June lamented that it is boring to have birthday cards in black n white.... and it's too expensive to print them with her own colour ink.


without thinking, I said 'why not personalised them, no need printer, just need hand (and time). She trusted my words and passed me a whole stack of A4 papers folded into half (size of a birthday card). I've counted 13 altogether.


To cut long story short, this is what happened :


design chosen (by my colleague) for birthday boys

design for birthday girls




all together




I passed up my homework and she said "You make a good kindergarten teacher. You really have the patience to colour 13 cards"
What I didn't tell her was 'Once upon a time, I dreamt of becoming a kindergarten teacher but I doubt I could survive with my kind of patience & my high maintenance lifestyle.
Of course, venturing into children education sector and franchising can be very profitable, but what's the main objective after all? Is it managing a business or teaching the children?


nevertheless, although not as beatiful as colour printed and I came out with my own colour scheme, I hope my colleagues will like these cards.

if it ain't cheap, it wouldn't be mine

btw, the above line is applicable to material things only ok.
and I'm putting money back into the economy again.

I spent RM130 on these 9 clothes - RM23 being the most expensive one. Time to update my wardrobe after 3 of my office clothes were torn (I've must have outgrown them =p). It's EUPHORIC to be able to buy the clothes that I like at a good price.


RM40 - that's all I spent on this 12 books consist of fictions, parenting and self help...all of which books that I'll be interested in even if the price were a little pricier.

Bilingual English - Chinese fully illustrated dictionaries at RM3 each ... good for me to learn 1st before I teach ah bi.

RM20 bucks for all these colourful collections of stories in chinese. This time I ventured into those without hanyu pinyin =)

All these little pants & shirt (cannot find shirt at the time photo was taken) for RM1 each.

I'm very happy cause I feel every penny spent was very WORTHWHILE.