I've only got 2 and 1/2 day left

I've only got 2 and 1/2 day left for me to do things that need to be done
Cause after that I will have to divide my time 
for my family with time for work.

To be honest, I'm going back to work with a heavy heart, a real heavy heart
but life doesn't always go the way we want it to be 
while it's sad for me, 
the next best thing I can do is to concentrate best at what I do when I do it and be grateful. (translate as : work when it's time to work and be the best 'me' when with love ones and friends)

looking back at the past 1 year from today, 
I've got many things learnt, 
many things to say,
many things to share,
many things to be thankful and grateful for
many things to be paid forward

easy yummy fully happy banana pancake

I'm no good at cooking (this is a known fact...LOL)

but I found something totally edible no matter how bad a cook I am

banana pancake with only 2 ingredients needed

banana + eggs 

1. Got some ripe bananas for RM0.99 from reduced to clear .. the riper the better more banana'ish sweet taste

2. cut the banana and smash using fork till puree (like for baby food)

3. beat 2 eggs (here I use telor kampung)

4. mix the banana and egg together and beat again to mix well

5. spread some oil / butter on the stove (I use butter, more yummy and smell nice)

6. pour the mixture into the pan and wait for them to cook. determine how small / big you want your pancake be.

7. Can eat just like that or with banana slice / honey / yoghurt / ice cream (we had it plain because it was already banana sweet. (okay I admit my end product look more like fried egg than pancake)

1st time my kids say I can cook nice food :D

can't wait for making the next batch.

I so really don't-know-what-I-want

I'm always like this ...
I so really don't know what I want
I don't know if I want to be SAHM or FTWM
making choices is already very difficult for me
making choices that involve other lives especially those dear to me is extremely difficult.

or do I just like Quesera sera
'whatever will be, will be' ... 'the future not us to see'
BUT BUT BUT
what we do NOW will determine our FUTURE

what if down the road, the decision I made now was no good and I'm unable to reverse the effect? is it too late to regret? will I hate myself for making that decision earlier? 

the only consolation : not making a decision is not going to change anything... most probably the worst we can do. 
Again, some say you can leave the decision making to others .. yes for certain things but definately not for things affecting us and those dependent on us.

Life oh life ...

project : reviving garden

Having a garden on my own has always been a dream since childhood (even though I do not have green fingers and sometimes plants that come to my hand die)

I always dream of having the time of my life to do gardening. 

(which explain why I insist to keep the part of our house a garden instead of cementing it).

And I always tell my kiddies that they can help me plant many many different type of plant in our garden. Now I started training them with watering and helping me with the potting.

When I got married, I did have a little nice garden (not something too big or fancy) but just enough to make me happy.

However, as time goes by, my garden turn from one with many plants to being a field with lots of weeds. 

So I made myself a vow to revive my little garden, this time with a twist. 

I'm going to make it a more edible one. 

Yes, at last the practicality in me took over the decorality in me.

So I started dreaming again ... of all the fruits / vegetables / herbs I'm going to pluck from my little garden.

It is not really a right time ... with the draught, haze and water condition in our area. 

But it still has to start, if not now then when?

Sounds crazy, but I do have a list of plants I wanted : 

papaya

custard apple

rozelle

aloe vera

raspberry

spring onion

avocado

pandan leave

curry leave

lemon grass 

ginger

kunyit / turmeric

kafir lime

vegetables

herbs

and I created a little spot for compost of garden waste with the hope of better soil for my future plants.

Another bad habit developed : I started eyeing what plants other people have in their garden / compound and am thick skin enough to ask for some stem / seed if I wanted it badly...LOL 

 Lemon grass, ginger, curry leave (which is still struggling to survive). Thanks to dear & kiddies for helping me pluck baby curry leave plant from nearby field.

Some kind of plant which help to clean the air @ home they say. The taller ones had turned all yellow due to renovation and all before I start to revive it. Smaller plant given by someone who saw my eager'ness in gardening.

Here's the nursery / rehab place : growing more roots for pandan leave, growing different types of lucky bamboo, a pot of japanese rose given by people, and another plant growing from the stem.

some other plants saved from older times.

Japanese rose with different colours. Too bad there are not flowering yet.

ps. if you do have any plants / seeds / gardening things which you wish to dispose, please do consider donating it to me. thank you very much =) 

missed it ... going to catch it

Almost everyone is talking about this movie since chinese new year.
Yes, even my mother in law ask us to watch it. 
Since I missed it on the big screen, sure will grab the chance to watch it when it comes to small screen.

"The Better Half " 完整版 《一路有你》片尾曲首次曝光

inspiring

Louis Koo secretly built 61 schools in china

source : http://www.malaysia-chronicle.com

itchy hand project 2 & 3

I'm crazy about being healthy and natural lately...
so explain my projects below

mosquitoes catcher 
verdict : mosquitoes too smart to get trapped in, but some other not so smart insect went in instead.
fruits vegetables leftover enzymes cleaning liquid 
verdict : don't know yet as have to keep 3 months before sieving to use.