longing for you

You

You didn't leave my mind the whole night. 
for many many nights...

And without mercy, 
you appear in my dreams ... making me want you more.

Every morning without fail, 
I'll peek at the window at you. 

Every evening before the sun set, 
I can't stop myself peeking at you for one more time.

Sometimes I blushed when our eyes meet

Sometimes I hide 
I love just watching you from afar ... letting my imagination run wild..

what will the suprise be when I open you up?

how juicy will you be when i taste you?

how good will you be (that you keep enticing me like that)?

how good will you be fulfilling the needs of a thirsty woman?

you know there are boundaries I can't cross

you know there are risks I can't take

you know there are people like me you can't flirt with

cause I might do anything I can just to have you next to me.

How could you be so cruel to me? (when I love you so much)

I'm desperately in love with you
I'm longing for you

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financial education in primary school 2014, secondary school 2017

Image: FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Better late than never.
Let's not delve into details ... contents, resources, readiness, implementation.
let's just take it as good news to a humble mother for her children to have access to financial knowledge / information in which she has to learn the hard way. 

source of today's happiness : 
http://schooladvisor.my/?p=news%2Ffinancial-education-to-be-taught-in-primary-schools-from-2014
http://schooladvisor.my/?p=news/secondary-students-to-be-taught-financial-management

thanksgiving

Only realised today is thanksgiving day after seeing so many post on this topic on FB.

Although neither well known nor celebrated widely in Malaysia,

this day trigger a very strong urge in me to be thankful and grateful. 

this year I really need to count my blessings and be thankful to all the people I'm indebted to (however cliche this may sound)

I'm thankful 

to God for forgiving me and for everything

for all my ah bis to be healthy 

for my parents and family who brought me up (although I doubt I can ever repay, I'll nevertheless still want to for as long as I'm still around)

for ah dear who stood by me despite all my worst

for my in-laws and relatives who look after me like their own children
for friends who are always there, always share
for medical personnels - doctors and nurses that helps us alot in times of need 
for having a roof over our head, warm meals, still having a job
for all the people who taught me about life and help me grow
for everything everyday 
(this list can go on and on...) but today, just for this once
allow me to be grateful, 
allow me to say thank you to all of you from the bottom of my heart.

I will always remember ... 
I will always try to pay it forward shall I not be able to repay you ...
May God bless you all ...

I can't thank enough
I didn't know the way to express 
but deep down in my heart, I'm deeply thankful
for all that have been through...

my latest work out sessions

someone posted this work out on facebook 
and I could RELATE ... lol












source : http://bit.ly/17D53uM

how the boss see it..

Excerpt from Xin Ran's Ms Chopstick
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the difference between male and female worker in the eyes of the boss : 

when the boss sees a male subordinate with a family photo on the desk, the boss thinks : Hmm..He must be a good, responsible man who takes care of his family.
when the boss sees a female subordinate with a family photo on the desk, the boss thinks : Hmm..work isn't the most important thing in her life, no point in expecting her to put heart into the company.

when the boss sees a male subordinate with an untidy desk, the boss thinks
He is so industrious! Look, he doesn't even have time to tidy his desk.
when the boss sees a female subordinate with an untidy desk, the boss thinks 
Look at that! She's clearly no organisational ability.

when the boss sees a male subordinate talking to his colleagues, the boss thinks
He must be discussing business developments. That's the spirit.
when the boss sees a female subordinate talking to his colleagues, the boss thinks 
Humph, she's gossiping and finding fault again. Oh well, it's in women's nature to have long tongues.

when the boss sees that a male subordinate is about to get promoted by his manager, the boss thinks
This man must have great potential.
when the boss sees a female subordinate is about to get promoted by his manager, the boss thinks
This woman must be having a thing with the director.

when the boss sees a male subordinate arrive late, the boss thinks
Was he burning the midnight oil again last night?
when the boss sees a female subordinate arrive late, the boss thinks 
Did her husband want it again last night? Or have they just ....

when the boss sees a male subordinate hand out wedding invitations, the boss thinks
He'll be more responsible now. Let's give him a big red envelope of lucky money as a bonus to encourage him.
when the boss sees a female subordinate hand out wedding invitations, the boss thinks 
Let's not make her red envelope too big. Soon, she'll get herself pregnant, take 2 month maternity leave and end up quitting her job to look after the kid.

when the boss sees a male subordinate leave for a better job, the boss thinks
He's a man who understand how to make the most of a good opportunity. Too bad the company can't keep him.
when the boss sees a female subordinate leave for a better job, the boss thinks 
That's women for you-untrustworthy!

Now, guess whether the boss is a man or woman? 
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sometimes I do wonder ... how many of the above is true (even in today's society)?

learning

Everyday we learn new things ... 
whether consciously or unconsciously.
Found this transparent pockets hanging piece from Daiso .. think it's great for learning for myself and kiddies. 
All we need is just to change the contents diligently.
Now it's hanging at the room where I change clothes .. and I learnt a few more new phrases / words.

Talking about learning ... I have lately realised that our lives and the people in it are teaching us something new every single day. I'll leave that for another post.  

currently craving

Source : goodyfoodies.blogspot.com

something as simple as stir fry asparagus prawn & scallop .... heavenly ...

a fright in the afternoon

My Fridays seem to be quite exciting and unpredictable these days. 
After a scare on the previous previous friday morning,
I had another fright yesterday afternoon.

If you happen to pass by the office building where I work ... 
you may be one of the many by-passers who wonder what are they offering at this building... why are there so many people queuing up since early morning?
Welcome to my daily routine ... which include queue'ing and waiting for lift in the peak hours like morning & lunch time.

I've tried queueing for about 30 minutes to 40 minutes just to get to my floor. 
I would have like many others chosen to just take a morning climb up the stairs if not for my current condition.

Back to the afternoon fright.
Out of the 4 lifts available for a 21-floors building, I was 'lucky' to have chosen the 'chosen' one.
The lift was packed like usual and after dropping some lift passengers on the 7th floor,
the lift door closed,
the lift start to black out,
the lift floor button indicator goes off, (no matter which button you press)
the lift stop abruptly,
and 4 ladies inside started standing at 4 corners of the lift.
I was at the left upper corner of the rectangular box.
We are trapped in the lift. 
It was my 1st time. Everyone was asking everyone if everyone is alright.
The malay lady standing near the buttons started pressing the bell for help. 
(btw, the building management and security guards are famous for their very slow if not non-action)
Perhaps from watching too much movies, I started having thoughts of free-falling lift. (eexperience of some colleagues who wrote to top managements about falling lifts doesn't help either).
And another lady kept telling us to bend our knees to lessen the impact in case it really happen.
Free-falling lift is risky for condition like me ... 
Perhaps my little one inside could sense my anxiety that I could feel ah bi moving actively.

It was time like this, I feel handphones are god-sent.
Everyone trapped started calling our colleagues to inform the building management aka. security guards (although we know it may take some time).
I managed to call a colleague of mine. 
I guessed it helped with my current condition, everyone say we need urgent help as there's someone with 'big belly' trapped inside.
Of course, my second-to-contact is ah dear...although I knew there's nothing much he can do. But the line wasn't getting through so I ended up sending him a sms...

At 1st I was alright and steady.
However, as time goes by, I started to feel my legs getting tired so I sat down.
It was ok at 1st but as time goes by, I think it got a little stuffier. (not sure whether real or psychological though).
We continue pressing the bell but nobody came. 
My colleague couldn't get through my line so she sms telling us the guards are checking.

We waited for about 20 minutes ... it was when one of the lady say perhaps we should try pulling open the door. She mentioned that's how her male colleagues do it. 
the 3 of them with all their strength tried opening the lift door, i wasn't allowed to help.

After a few attempts, they managed to slice open a thin line between the lift doors, and lucky we were not too far away from the 8th floor - floor.
It was really a relief. With a little help, we got out of the lift. 
Thank god we are all alright. 
(well, i did manage to speak to ah dear when we are out from the malfunctioned lift, he said not to worry, as even if no electricity, the lift will clamp itself secure and under normal circumstances will not free-fall)

Perhaps this is another reason I dread going to work ... and that's it's time for me to move on... haha

a scare in the morning

yesterday morning I had a big scare.
Over the past few years, I did have fainting spells but
I would rate this morning black out as 2nd (if not 3rd scariest)

The scariest was the morning after my second ah bi delivery @ the hospital delivery ward toilet (the lucky thing I'm in a hospital and other mothers at the toilet called help for me). the next thing I know after the black out was I was being wheeled by 3 nurses back to my bed and had doctors checking on me and nurses busy taking my blood pressure every 5 to 10 minutes. 

The other scary incident was fainting in LRT. Lucky thing during then was it was during morning peak hours and have someone who knows me in the LRT and we were near the station our station. A good samaritan even took trouble to buy me roti krim and mineral water.

Yesterday morning, it was scary because I was alone with 2 little ones. 
1 still sleeping inside the room and another inside me. Dear was outstation.
I felt dizzy when I woke up but instead of sitting at the bed to rest, I stubbornly stood and walk to the door (in my effort not to wake little one sleeping on the bed so that I can wash and prepare myself in peace).
Things happened so fast after that.
I closed the room door and blacked out. I can feel myself falling like blocks of wood on the floor with a 'thump'. Everything went black for a few seconds I think. 
The next thing I knew was I was lying on the floor and force myself to breathe to get in more oxgygen for my brain and especially little one inside.
Lucky I'm still at the door (which is just a few steps away from the stairs) and not at the stairway. 
I sat there stunted not knowing what has happened and dare not know what will happen if I don't wake up from then. I'm thankful I'm still here.

This morning I woke up feeling aches on my left upper arm and body, most probably impact from the black out fall yesterday. 

Lessons learnt : If feeling faint / not well, it's better to stay put and rest / recover 1st, instead of acting like a hero.  

they reminded me that ...

@ work, fingers have been pointing, accusations have been hurling around when system errors occur after the major project cutover.

Being a tester, we are most of the time the most vulnerable group irregardless of whether you have done your due diligence.

To avoid further unnecessary stress, I decided to just let those pointed and hurled at me to take place without struggling to put up any defense. 

It was after all very meaningless to me. 

However, to say that I'm not affected at all is telling a big fat lie through my teeth.

Somehow God decided to remind me that admidst all the 'you have not done .... / you have done it wrong' that have been hurled towards me, that Saturday, through my ah bi(s) I was reminded that ....

perhaps I've done something really important ... something that matter more ...

that day the elder one told me he love me and offered to help me wash the dishes (all of sudden) and later that afternoon he helped me fold most of his own and sister clothes. 

In case you're wondering how they reach the sink, look at the 2 fella tip toeing. 

I was happy when he told me he love me, happier when he offered to help me wash the dishes, happiest when he solved his own problem (taking the stool when he can't reach the running water) and the little one followed his example. 

(and to satisfy your curiousity, no, they didn't thoroughly rinse all the soap from the kitchen utensils ...haha, but to me they are already doing a great job =) 

* ps. sorry for the exposed skins, she was getting ready to take bath when she decided to join the fun.

   

Maybe after all, I'm not as bad as what they say.  

and that I now know very clearly that I live for myself ... 

lucky i still have u

For the past few weeks & months, life has not been easy for me.
work wise also very bumpy, so much so that I feel like giving up because it's affecting me health wise.
But lucky I still have you .. 
who's still there for me even when I show my ugly dark side
who try to cheer me up when I hit the bottom
who tell me things that I refuse to listen and let me see things that I couldn't see through

thank you for the sewing machine and little radio which allow me to seek comfort.
We will together little by little make our effort build our little home sweet home ... even if it's a little brick a day.

不再让你孤单

Just finished watching this movie... after a few sittings. (I seldom get to finish a movie in 1 sitting..hehe)

Titled 'a beautiful life' in English .. directed by Andrew Lau, staring Liu Ye & Shu Qi. 

this is a touching movie which tell tales about love and life of normal people just like you and me.

slowly coming back

sorry for the long hiatus.
I'm learning to cope with life.
Things expected and unexpected happen and I'm taking them one at a time.
Now I know it really doesn't take alot for me to be happy. 
I just want to live a simple life. 

children do learn from their parents

In my effort to inculcate independence in my kiddies, I have the tendency to encourage them to reach or to get their things on their own.
For instance, when they want (or I want them) to drink water, I'll tell them go to take their own water bottle and if they don't remember where they left it, I'll tell them to try and look for it themselves. The same goes for their potty or any other stuff that's within their reach.

However, the other day, I got a taste of my own medicine.
I was laying down and needed help from my elder one to help pass me my water bottle which was a few feet away from me. 
And so I asked nicely : (Name)(name), can you help mama take mama water bottle there please. Thank you. (pointing at the direction of the water bottle).
and I do get a very nice reply : mama, mama need to learn to do things yourself. Mama, you can do it.
I still feeling lazy to wake up so I say : mama need (name) help cause mama not well, pain pain cannot stand up but mama thirsty and need to drink water.
He then asked me : Mama where pain pain? (like I always ask him when he's not well)
I lied : mama leg pain pain 
So he went to grab my water bottle, passed it to me and said : mama you drink more water, then no more pain pain (just like I always tell him to drink more water so got no more sick).
I said : Thank you very much (name) for being helpful. Now, you go take your own bottle and drink together with mama, can?
I was lucky that he obliged and didn't use the 'reason' I used back on me.

 This incident made me realized that children, they really learn alot from what you DO as opposed to what you PREACH.
As parents we are always being 'WATCHED' so we should try our best to lead by good example.

新少林寺主題曲 -- 悟 劉德華

This movie is showing on tv this coming CNY. 
I remembered watching it during confinement and like the theme song. 

'never bring eye' walking

Something happened to me this morning. 
After dropping my little one off to kindergarten, I walked STRAIGHT into a wall pillar.
Things were happening too fast so much so that I didn't realized what happened at that particular moment.

All of a sudden, I feel my head and knee banged hard on something. I felt my head vibrate and my teeth shaking. It was so hard that I moved backward due to the impact.
And my initial reaction was not to look back at where the teachers are but just run straight towards dear's car. 
It was so so embarrassing. 
If the teacher saw, they would have thought : how la this mother look after her kid if herself so clumsy?? 

As soon as I got into the car, i broke out in LAUGHTER. 
Suddenly I WOKE UP. 

Ah dear say he couldn't understand how I can walk into a pillar. And that I couldn't even focus even when I'm walking.
Actually what he said was partially true also lah... cause I was actually smiling to an old lady (who I presume helping at the kindy) when I bang into that lucky pillar.

I ended up with a big 'hong mou lao' on my forehead plus scratched right knee and hands despite my best away to rub away the blue back and clean the knee and hands with the ubat kuning. (Lucky ah dear has a mini first aid box in his car).
And I had some great de-stressing laughing time when colleagues started asking me about the 'hong mou lao' on my forehead.

ps. will update the photo after transfer from phone...haha

49 days

I've just finished watching 49 days (the korean drama series)

and couldn't help but remember the 7*7 49 days after my mother left us. 

The circumstances were different but until today we (my family), we couldn't find any explanation for strange things that happened during 头7 and the remaining 35 days.

ps. On a lighter mood, I think Han Kang in the series is good looking...haha

de-clutter

Managed to de-clutter my home fridge and freezer and my office desk within 10 days into 2013 ... I feel liberated.

Didn't know that de-cluttering can help me feel good =)

So, more de-cluttering I've lined up for myself this year ... coincidentally a good time too before chinese new year.

perhaps since I'm gaining momentum, it's good time to start de-cluttering my life too ...

unwinding

for the past few days, my little one is learning to adapt to new people, new environment and new culture into his life. He started going to kindergarten.
there were tears and all but isn't that part of growing up?
Here, we took him & the little one to the playground for a relaxing unwinding moment (read : to let off steam)
In case you're wondering, we are building a bird nest for the made-believed homeless bird (luckily he buy the story ... thanks to mama who tell lies without blinking eyes...haha)

midnight book shopping

1st time experience midnight book shopping towards end of 2012 ...
thanks to a group of friends who asked me along for BBW (big bad wolf) '63-hour frenzy' where they open non-stop for 63 hour @ MIECC
It was a pleasant experience shopping for books at very low prices on a relaxing friday night ... the cool night air seem to make people feel at ease.
Thanks to Keef - for helping us hunt for our 'to-buy-list' when she was there earlier =)
Thanks to CY, FL, NDC for asking me along, helping me to control my spending and maximize my savings,for sacrificing sleep (especially for NDC who's to drive 6.30am the same morning)

my loots for sharing :)

neither here nor there

neither here nor there ... that's how I would describe my crawl over from 2012 to 2013.
A few years lately, I seemed to have hangover effect in my attempt to transit from a previous year to a newer year.
I seemed to be in a 'buffer' in between the adjacent years.
the transition this time is no difference.

I'm still too lazy to think about 2012 yet... 
but 2013 came knocking on my door ... asking me to face the brave new world regardless whether I'm willing or not.

there are 360 more days to go 
yet I felt as though I've run for 360 days non-stop.

well, enough of lamenting.
it's time to wake up ... come 2013 there shall be more opportunities, more room for improvement, more chances.

what a negative post to start of the year 
just let me rant for this last time before I leave my 'buffer' tougher.

i've missed the boat...so how?

here I am, posting a day after the once in a lifetime 12.12.12
so how? 
I'll say 'Go on with life' ... sometimes we do missed the boat. 
And this is one of the many occasions.

looking back, yesterday @ 12:12:12pm, I was extracting milk for my little girl. 
I'm glad that was what I was doing instead of stressing myself up with no-where-near-complete work.

for whatever come may, 
I'm happy I spent time (at last after 2 months of procrastination) letting my little boy picking the photos he would like to put in the photo frames at home. And we had a good time decorating our home with those photos.
Seeing little boy helped papa putting together the simple wooden rack we got from IKEA makes my heart smile. 

We may not know when it will all end ... 
but hopefully we are able to do what we can and what we think is best for us and our loved ones.

童年

the good ool times ...
I wish I could let my children experience their 童年 as much as possible too, rather than being caught up in the competitive rat race..







《童年》 歌词 
池塘边的榕树上 
知了在声声地叫着夏天 
操场边的秋千上 
只有蝴蝶儿停在上面 
黑板上老师的粉笔 
还在拼命唧唧喳喳写个不停 
等待着下课 
等待着放学 
等待游戏的童年 
福利社里面什么都有 
就是口袋里没有半毛钱 
诸葛四郎和魔鬼党 
到底谁抢到那支宝剑 
隔壁班的那个男孩 
怎么还没经过我的窗前 
嘴里的零食 
手里的漫画 
心里初恋的童年 
总是要等到睡觉前 
才知道功课只做了一点点 
总是要等到考试以后 
才知道该念的书还没有念 
一寸光阴一寸金 
老师说过寸金难买寸光阴 
一天又一天一年又一年 
迷迷糊糊的童年 
没有人知道为什么 
太阳总下到山的那一边 
没有人能够告诉我 
山里面有没有住着神仙 
多少的日子里总是 
一个人面对着天空发呆 
就这么好奇 
就这么幻想 
这么孤单的童年 
阳光下蜻蜓飞过来 
一片片绿油油的稻田 
水彩蜡笔和万花筒 
画不出一边那一条彩虹 
什么时候才能象高年级的同学 
有张成熟与长大的脸 
盼望着假期盼望着明天 
盼望着长大的童年 
一天又一天一年又一年 
盼望长大的童年

Seriously, I need a break

Life @ work has been hectic and taxing for me for the past few months... 
so much so that it has spill over effect over my life @ home.

I've a feeling that I'm running and running non-stop with no finishing line in sight.
I want to stop and rest but I couldn't. 
I want to just slow down but I wasn't allowed to.

I think the only time I really will get to rest is when the time comes (you know, the bucket kicking time).

I'm really really tired ... 
Seriously, I need a break or I might just break.

12星座女生最在意情人什麼

Let's take a break with something light =)

【12星座女生最在意情人什麼】

白羊座
白羊女生最在意情人夠不夠性格、有沒有個性，軟弱沒主見的男生，恐怕會讓白羊女生逃之夭夭。

金牛座
金牛女生最在意老公有沒有認真、老實，就算對方很有錢，如果是花花公子，她也難以接受的。

雙子座
雙子女生最在乎情人的臨場反應，越聰明伶俐，越容易引起雙子女生的共鳴。呆呆笨笨的老實人，會讓她興趣缺缺。

巨蟹座
巨蟹女生只要對方認真踏實，其他的通通可以不管。事實上，巨蟹女生最在意的是「感覺」，感覺對了，就算對方是個痞子也會愛上的。

獅子座
獅子女生要自己的男
朋友，至少有一兩樣事情，可以「端上檯面」。要不就是有錢、要不就是有名、再不然也要夠帥…如果都沒有，那夠溫柔體貼也行。

處女座
凡是認真到有點過頭的處女座女生，什麼事都很在意，結果最後很容易挑到怪咖型的男朋友。

天秤座
天秤座女生好像最在意外表，挑帥哥來當男朋友。但事實上，她還希望情人是個幽默風趣的人。

天蠍座
天蠍女生會最在意對方是否忠貞、誠實。此外，她也希望對方有與眾不同的才華和魅力。

射手座
射手女生喜歡個性爽朗的男生，對她們來說開朗最重要，陰陰沈沈的人她們可受不了。

摩羯座
十八歲以前的摩羯女生，只在意男友是否老實。十八歲後的摩羯女生，會努力挑一個未來的王永慶或比爾蓋茲。

水瓶座
水瓶女生在意的事很多，要頭腦靈活、不讓她覺得悶，又要溫柔體貼、不讓她覺得孤單，又要夠獨立、不會讓她覺得煩。

雙魚座
對情人要求最少的恐怕就是雙魚，她們往往閉著眼睛談戀愛，反正愛上了，就什麼都不在意了

today 1 year ago (part 2)

Arriving at the O&G, I approach the nurses at the counter. I bet I doesn't look like someone who's in labour. 
I told them I have slight bleeding. They asked if it's alot. I wanted to show them the photograph I took this morning but they were not interested...haha. (I took photo with my phone cause I may not know how to explain the 'patch').

The nurses helped me with the registration and while waiting to be called in for examination, I needed to go toilet. The toilet there cannot be locked. I'm not too sure whether the lock was spoilt or it was intentionally not to be locked just in case of emergency.

My name was called and I was lead to a examination room. 
There, they asked me some questions and looked through my file. I was then asked to lay down for them to attach fetal monitoring device to track baby's heartbeat and contractions.

To be honest, I think I have a little phobia of the fetal monitoring ... it reminded me of my experience with my little boy. His heartbeat dropped from 140+ to 70+ for 2 times or more(I couldn't remember clearly) and the machine keep making the 'ti ti ti ti ti' alert sound. Everyone is rushing around me. All I could think of at that moment was I'll just agree to anything as long as my baby is safe.  

Back to here. So, they monitored me for 30 minutes or so. 
Baby heartbeat ok. The contractions were interesting. I could see the readings go higher and higher each time I have contractions and they were once every 15min - 20min with a few braxton hicks contractions that come 5-10 minutes apart . The doctor on duty was a female chinese doctor. She was gentle when performing VE (VE = vaginal examination to determine how dilated is our cervix in preparation for childbirth). 

After all the monitoring and checking, the findings : 
contractions were pretty consistent but I'm only 1cm dilated. 
So nothing can be done except to be sent home. We were advised no need to come in unless heavy bleeding, water bag leaking, or lack of fetal movement. 
Else, I'm to come in again to be induced a week later (due to gestational diabetes, they do not allow me to go way past my EDD : estimated due date).

So I'm all relieved, telling dear that I can still have coconut drink. I even told him that it could be days before the actual delivery. My colleague who gave birth 2 weeks before me had to wait 4 days (from 1cm dilation) before the actual delivery.

That saturday night, knowing it could be my last saturday pasar malam trip before I give birth, I insisted to go jalan jalan and buy all the foods that I wanted to eat. 
By then, I was feeling quite tired with the contractions and back pain. Looking back, I wondered where the hell have I got so much energy.

That night I still managed to catch some sleep after some gym ball session. Woke up a few times to go to the toilet but I forced myself to sleep back. 
I have no idea why but I seemed not to remember very well the night - the last night I'm able to have a full sleep. Because from then on, my nights / sleep were always broken into  a few session not a single long sleep...

It's also funny how near I'm to delivery and yet still refused to accept the reality. I still have not finish packing my hospital bag (read : refused to pack)

to be continued...

today 1 year ago (part 1)

today 1 year ago... 

most probably I'm still being stitched up in the labour room.

today here I'm reflecting on how much I've been through

In my mind, today 1 year ago was a 2nd chance my little girl gave me.

some people were puzzled when they found out I wanted to have a normal delivery after a cesaerean ... 

but only perhaps God, me, baby and ah dear know how much I wanted a VBAC

and how much I've gone through physically and emotionally.

I still remembered clearly that Saturday morning 

my due date is still a week away and I still have unsettled business at work. 

Even my bag for hospital was not finished packing.

I feel like having diarrhea around 4am++ in the morning so I rushed to the toilet bringing with me a magazine (yes, I read while detoxing). 

I didn't suspect much although having diarrhea like episode was one of the signs I had for my 1st labour.
It was only when I notice I had a patch of bloody discharge on my underwear that I started to panic. Yah, I know this is not my 1st time but I still get nervous and worry if baby is alright. 
I scrutinized and sniffed and looked and sniffed again to confirm whether are those blood fresh. Honestly I didn't know if labour is starting anytime soon. I only felt slight menstrual cramp.

I tried going back to sleep but I woke up the very next hour to the loo again. The bloody discharge seem to get lesser.
I started researching on the internet, some say that the actual labour could start in hour / days from the 'bloody show'.

So I reassured myself that perhaps I still have time to relax a little. 

That Saturday afternoon (29/10/11), I've actually promised to meet a representative from one of stem cell banking company. When the rep asked for my estimated due date, I steadily told her still got a week to go... not knowing I'll be giving birth the very next day.

As usual, a trip to tesco without actually going into tesco is pointless for me...haha. 
So, with many reasons ... such as wanting to walk more, easier to deliver and wanting to buy this and that, I managed to persuade dear to accompany me and little boy to tesco.

After tesco, since I still have slight bleeding, we decided it's best we go to the hospital.
So around 3pm that saturday, we went to hospital. I insist that ah dear do not drop me at the O&G emergency doorstep because I still want to walk for easier delivery.

Contraction come and go ... or so I thought they are braxton hicks contractions ... which I have during my 3rd trimester.

.... to be continued

re-cycle toys

remember those wooden peg which sometimes we use in art subject during our school times.
I stumbled upon some at the hypermarket alley during window shopping and couldn't resist getting them.
So with RM1.50, I brought all these little pegs home (i think about 20 of them.

 I always tell my kid I've new games for them (eventhough I have not thought of any yet) and love seeing their 'looking forward faces'.
So when I opened the pack, I thought him how to clip and unclip (his fine motor skill a little lacking and still room for improvement).
Then I started making the pegs stand and he follows what I did. Here, he puts most of it up with me pretending to put the same old one again & again...lol



lazy to prepare the stuff for water colour to paint the pegs, I took the short cut and dished out magic colours. This stack scribbled by my little boy.





and this stack is those salvaged by mama ... as usual, all things colourful.

next upcycle project : making a photo line with some photos hanging with these clips on a metal wire =)

oh... and these are the cardboard cut out for playing memory game / matching game courtesy of campbell soup and pudding cardboard. 

wish me luck in coming up with more games for little ones to avoid me giving them empty promises ... haha

when he thinks we are sleeping

This is one of the many proof of things he has done when he thinks we are still sleeping..
Not only does he applied lotion to his 妹妹's face ... he also applied lotion on the poor little fella's face. 

8月15

an outdated post ... this year mooncake festival was celebrated like this ... and we get to eat the 'ling kok' the fruit that look like kerbau head with tanduk... 

 and this was my pre-mooncake festival 'sweating exercise' ... at last i managed to finish my 2 week supply of office attire...phew








*** ps. can't wait for morning to come... one of our buddies is getting married =) wishing them 白头到老 =)

dogs have their lookalikes too

 There are 3 puppies here, one from Bandung & 2 from Cheras
(1) Solo's princess 
(2) 我家的 wishbone
(3) 我妹家的小白

Can you guess which is which? =D

you light up my life! you keep me warm!

Got this microwave oven at a bargain price. 
Now I get to eat warm food conveniently without needing to reheat using steam method. 
Knowing the lazy me...sometimes I just skipped the heating part previously.
Thank you so much CY for bringing me this! 
and to SY too for sharing with me some secret recipes! 

Birthday + mooncake festival present for little boy from my sis.
Comes with lights & music. both of them were fighting for it that it now has to be hung up high where only papa can reach. 
Thank you mei mei.

1st big item purchase from IKEA @ RM69.
Again, was bought when ah dear out station for work else I may have left it as it is @ IKEA...hehe
Nevertheless, thank you ah dear for suprisingly assembling when I was at work previous Saturday =)

these 2 ... i got myself from the hinode RM5 shop. Pretty sure it's waste money but I've been looking & relooking the design since 2-3 months back (all the while considering whether to buy or not to buy). At last the devil won.




** the mosquitoes spray vehicle just passed by 2 rounds this morning around 5am. 
Thank you very much to the person who take his job seriously in helping to eradicate aedes mosquitoes and fight dengue fever. God bless this person(s).
There were quite a number of cases @ this part of the town lately.