Just the day before, I 'chickened out' from a bigger role career wise.
That is after I wasted a few days of my maternity leave thinking and rethinking over and over over it.
Oh...and I pretty much gave myself a few too many 'lame' justifications for 'chickening out'
and I totally understand the implications of my action 'chickening out'
Among the lame excuses, the timing is out...I've just take on a bigger role personal wise and come clashing with it is a bigger role career wise.
Strange though...I still felt relieved.
Perhaps I don't have the 'fire' in me anymore, it's slowly distinguishing.
Why can't I choose both and balance them out?
Just like how I can't multitask ... I couldn't focus on one without sacrificing another.
There's this thing that I haven't learn to tackle.
From past experiences, I usually end up neither here nor there. Worse come to worse, I flopped both.
Yes, I'm aware that nothing comes easily without sacrifice...
which is perhaps why I choose to sacrifice for those things that are to me, more important.
sorry for the lame post ...
Wishing everyone a merry merry christmas & a happy happy new year =)
2 comments:
don't worry, when a door is closed, another door will open....
everyone have their priority list, for me family comes first as well.
i will be making a disappearing act from work very soon just like many other parents :)
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