Ah ma is the person who took care of me since 2 months old till about 10 years old (standard 4). She’s very dear to me, just like my parents. She was the one who brought me up no matter how naughty I am. She left at age 63. “Ah ma” that’s how I call her … because to me, she’s my mother too.
I’m very sad because there are a lot of things I could have done for her but I didn’t.
I’m very sad because there are things that I wanted to tell her but I didn’t.
Now that I wanted to do these for her, she didn’t wait for me.
Now all these are my regrets.
And I regret that I didn’t tell her “I love you” and that I care and ‘sayang’ her a lot.
If only I …….
I remember that when I visit her just before Chinese New Year, I promised her to visit her more often. She looked fine & happy during then and told me she had cataracts removed from both eyes some time ago.
She told me “if you come visit me more often, I’ll have lesser illness”
She asked me whether I’m seeing someone because she wanted to attend the wedding dinner.
She asked me how’s my parents and told me to take good care of them
She asked me how’s my work because she wanted me to have a good life.
Being in her arms take away all my fear.
Honestly, I’m very fortunate to have so many people caring for me. Not only Ah ma but her whole family. Her children are like my brothers and sisters.
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