the day I'm afraid of has come

Like it or not ...
the day that I'm afraid of had come.

The temporary breastfeeding room - or so I called it, had been scheduled to be dismantled last weekend to allow more space for expanding team.

My 1st initial reaction was 'Why now?' and 'Why so short notice?'
but when I sit down to think further ... I'm actually consider lucky to earn 13 months extra ...
Imagine my other colleague who has just shared the room for 5 days only to receive this kind of shocking news.

Seeing this obstacle right in front of me, I emailed another 2 colleague - a new mother who has just started work after maternity & breastfeeding and another soon-to-be-mother of 2nd child next year.
I couldn't believe I was actually forming an alliance to 'fight' for our causes and rights.
I've wanted to include all other female colleagues as well but reserved them as back up plan if initial negotiation does not go as plan.

So early the next morning, we sort of 'march' into our immediate boss 'cubicle' to voice our concern. She is smart to see a common 'denomitor' among these mothers and immediately knew she can't escape this time. Or maybe I've been openly voicing my concern ever since yesterday evening when I've got the news.
I didn't even seem to mind being labeled as 'mastermind' ...
All I wanted was just for our rights to be recognised and we to be given basic access to our rights.

Moreover I think this is the best time to negotiate for a small little room for breastfeeding mothers since they are doing renovation.
It's time to ask now or never .... not so easy after people have renovated.
I strongly feel it's ok if we plant the 'tree' now so that many more mothers are able to sit in the 'shade' for many years to come (considering the demographic of my division).

To cut the long story short, our immediate boss (a lady) who initially suggested a meeting room has brought up our concerns to big boss who later suggested the pantry.
They refuse to cater for our need to have a little room ( I do not know for whatever reason).
Personally I prefer the meeting room than the pantry. I feel that it is unfair that the pantry is being locked at certain times of the day because 'someone is obviously doing something at somepoint of the day' ....
I do not know and do not care what are their intentions ... to slowly and gradually kill off our breastfeeding intention by making it more inconvenience and difficult for us.
Sorry for being selfish but to me, if you are unable to use the pantry especially during lunch time because I'm 'IN' there ... I'm sorry but a much better way, tell boss.
May be after much feedback, we mothers will be treated better ...
We just hope that bosses and management understand that besides our formal duties, we also have other equally important 'motherly duties'.












Anyhow, I'm still very thankful for the 13 months that they had given to me.
And for the months to come ... for at least they have still given us the 'green light' to use the pantry.

Sorry for the rather feminist ranting ...
But I'm proud myself and my other 2 mothers colleagues ... we fought for our rights although the outcome may not as we wanted.
This journey is just starting, I'll be back ... fighting for our rights.

One thing I discovered .... how courageous mothers can be for their children ... my respect to all mothers.

90 is the new 60

I'm looking forward for the 'may' to change to 'to' in the above headlines

take bath time

I love take bath time ... it's a time I always do a reflection of what happen throughout the day, the week, the month, the year and the my life.
My take bath time also used to be the time I take to ponder important decisions in life, the time I cried my heart out when I'm sad, the time I take to heal my heart, the time I take to refresh my memories...

Just now, as I was taking bath...It just hit me that I'm having a good life after all so far

Once, I told someone that I consider myself very lucky ... each time when I face difficulties in life, somehow something will turn good, somehow someone will appear as my angel, somehow the difficulties will take a 180 degree turn.
And I was told by that someone that it was because I'm easily pleased even by the simplest thing.
I do not know ...

a bouquet of flower from ah dear

Last last week, ah dear told me he brought a bouquet of flower home for me all the way from Ipoh ... I said 'What? Got too much money ah?'
Ended up I love the bouquet of 'flowers'
Appreciate it very much =)

Are you sick?

Do you believe if I say we all have at least a little of illness?
This illness is known as 职业病 ...

I've made some real life observations and these are my limited findings, if you have some examples, feel free to share too =)

Case 1 : (updated)

Boiling water in a electric kettle (with measurement indicator like those they have in hotel)

The characters :
1. A doctor (Anaesthetician to be exact, the doctor who give you anaesthetic a.k.a painkiller)
2. a money minded worker / mother
3. a person with background in physic, chemistry & electrical stuff

When the 3 of them boil water, you can easily tell which kettle of water was boiled by who. How?

(a) 1 kettle will have water lesser than the 'Full - Max' indicator. - person 3 (he says lesser water to heat, use lesser electricity & faster wo)

(b) 1 kettle will have water exactly at the 'Full - Max' indicator. - person 1 (as an anaesthetician, it is crucial to ensure that the dose of painkiller given to patient is exactly as stated / calculated)

(c) 1 kettle will have water more than the 'Full - Max' indicator. - person 2 ( like money, the more the better and no need to boil so many times)

btw, the 'Full - Max' indicator is at 1.8L for this particular kettle.

Would you like to take a guess at the answer before I reveal it in the next post? hehe

Case 2 :
If a friend post on FB "36.8 degrees celcius ... lying on bed now..

The characters :

1. A business man / woman or a salesperson

2. A doctor

3. An English teacher

4. A person dealing with air-cond system

5. A person with wild imagination (this one I purposely add one =p keke

6. A sport enthusiastic

(a) The 1st thing that comes to this person mind is the spelling of degree Celsius (°C) - an extra 's' on degree

(b) The 1st thing that comes to this person mind is " emm......that's not fever........it's normal...."

(c) The 1st thing that comes to this person mind is start converting the degree to whichever other measurement metrics or start guessing the humidity or even thinking of the temperature of the room and how to cool it down if necessary.

(d) The 1st thing that comes to this person mind is 'temperature's not raised, never mention heart racing, somemore just say lying on the bed ... so most likely not refering to action + excitement 'on the bed'.

(e) The 1st thing that comes to this person mind is 'must be cooling down after some sport, now temperature back to normal and resting on bed sweet bed'...perhaps with some arching muscles?

(f) The 1st thing that comes to this person mind is "he / she must be lying down on the bed thinking about a pay rise of 36.8% OR about the profit can make if sold of the share/investment today OR the sales increment needed to sustain the same income. This person may accidentally overlook the 'degree Celsius (°C)' and replace it with % or ratio.

Would you like to take a guess 1st as well? =p

ps. please, no offends to anyone / any occupation ... just a little fun observation. Any resemblance to real life cases is merely coincidence. (hehe, actually case 1 is very real. case 2 is 3/4 real..lol)

yes, I'm a little (maybe a many) crazy for writing this post at this hour but I could sleep after waking up.

meaningfully creative

I do not know whether this billboard is placed strategically there on purpose or it was coincidentally there ... but I find the SUNLIGHT bring exceptional meaning to an already meaningful message. Kudos to Petronas for another meaningful ad!

here, another side of the billboard with a message : Kekuatan sebenar kita terletak pada hati.

ps. when I was standing there taking these photos with my handphone, the guard and some tourists looked at me strangely...but who cares?

learning...

I read a chinese saying somewhere that :

Learning is like rowing upstream : not to advance is to drop back

and I find it very true.

sapu buku

love ones, friends, water, foods & air aside ... if there's one thing I cannot resist, it has got to be book. I'm captivated by books.

Yes, now we can get almost everything on the WWW and you can read e-book while commuting / in the loo but at times, nothing beats reading a good ol' book.

This month I've gone to 'sapu buku' again @ Times Warehouse Clearance sales @ BSC.

Nevermind the fact that I bravely took public transport to this uptown place without even knowing where the bus stop to get down & bus stop to take a bus home. Not to mention the 'auntish load' I'm carrying..lol

My 'fishes' which I caught from the sea of books...
Mostly are 3 for RM10. Some are RM2 & RM3.


Bring me to warehouse clearance sales...that's all you need to keep me happy for a few months to year.
Bring me to a book one ... I'll be the happiest people around and the happiness will last me as long as the book last =D

1st train .... last bus

Tomorrow's adventure :
taking the 1st LRT @ 6pm (correction:6am). It's my 1st.
Need to go back to office to do testing... all these while I'm enjoying the luxury of doing testing @ comfort of own chair.
Dread waking up so early, dread sneaking out while my baby & ah dear still sleeping, dread having to work on a weekend.
But somehow secretly I'm also anticipating the adventure of non-routine tomorrow =)
I've packed my bag including the book that I want to read while waiting for environment to be released for testing.

Last time's adventure :
Still remember during my school time, I relied very much on public transportation.
There was once where I was supposed to take bus no.62 to go home after a project discussion.

The last bus according to the bus operator @ Jln Silang (in front of Mydin) is 11.30pm.
And here I was there standing & waiting for bus no.62 @11.40pm.

Don't ask me why I didn't call my dad to come fetch me ... I can't remember whether I have handphone already or not at that time. The thing is I lied to my parents that someone will be sending me home in order not to let them worry about me.

Don't ask me why I didn't call my boyfriend to come fetch me ... cause I don't remember having a boy friend who's interested in me ... lol.

I still remember waiting very anxiously for the bus & kept bugging the bus operator @ the bus station to help me check whether the last bus 62 has come & gone. I even went to the extend of asking almost everyone standing near me what bus are they taking.

In my head, I'm making all sorts of plans on how to arrive home safely... things like sharing taxi with someone, or take another bus to the nearest place & take a taxi home, or making a list of people whom I can call in case or emergency except my parents.

Finally, when bus no. 62 finally arrive @ around 11.50... I was so relieved that I almost kneel down to thank god. I chased & scrambled up the bus no matter how packed it was.

Reaching my station, I still remember walking on the empty street back to my home way past midnight. Luckily the restaurant near my house is still open. I was walking as fast as I could (or did I run?)
Reaching home, my dad asked me how I came back....with the slightest emotion I said "Oh, my friend sent me back lo"
My dad then asked "Eh, never see any car one?"
I replied "Oh, my friend parked @ the restaurant there, we had supper then they walk together with me back here lo"

Come to think about it now ... me, not a bad liar after all...
Now I'm worried whether next time my children will give me the same type of 'answer' ...lol

女孩子并不在乎...

Is it true that?

女孩子并不在乎你有没有钱， 她在乎的是你会不会发奋努力改变现状；
Girl don't care whether you have money, she only cares whether you'll work hard to change your current condition.

女孩子并不在乎与你生活在一起会遇到困难， 她在乎的是你会不会迎难而上，不逃避；
Girl don't care whether living with you is full of difficulties, she only cares whether you'll improve & not avoid realities.

女孩子并不在乎你长得有多帅， 她在乎的是你能不能给她足够的安全感；
Girl don't care how handsome you are, she only cares whether you are able to provide her enough sense of security.

女孩子并不在乎你跟你的异性朋友有多好， 她在乎的是你能不能一心一意对她好；
Girl don't care about how good your relationships are with opposite sex friends, she only cares whether you are able to be good to her solely.

女孩子并不在乎你送她的礼物有多贵， 她在乎的是你会不会时常给她个惊喜；
Girl don't care how expensive is your gift, she only cares whether will you always give her suprises.

女孩子并不在乎你的志向有多远大， 她在乎的是你是不是一个老实做人、踏实做事的人；
Girl don't care how far & big is your aspiration, she only cares whether you are an honest and realistic person.

女孩子并不在乎你有多浪漫， 她在乎的是能不能从生活的点滴中感受到你的爱；
Girl don't care how romantic you are, she only cares whether she can feel your love from life's ups & downs.

女孩子并不在乎你的人可以每时每刻都陪在她身边， 她在乎的是你的心可以无时无刻不想着她；
Girl don't care whether you are able to be by her side all the time, she only cares whether your heart think of her always.

女孩子并不在乎你在物质生活上给她多大的满足， 她在乎的往往是一句窝心的话，那似乎比什么都重要；
Girl don't care how much satisfaction you can give her materially, she only cares about the warmth in your words, that's far more important than anything else.

女孩子并不在乎你现在的境况如何， 她在乎的是你能不能让她看到你的未来；
Girl don't care about your current situation, she only cares whether you are able to let her see your future.

女孩子并不在乎你跟她的关系有多亲密， 她在乎的是你会不会负责到底；
Girl don't care how intimate is your relationship with her, she only cares whether you can be responsible till the end.

女孩子并不在乎可以分享你的快乐， 她在乎的是可不可以分担你的忧愁；
Girl don't care if she can share your happiness, she only cares if she can share your troubles.

女孩子并不在乎跟你在一起吃苦， 她在乎的是陪你走到最后的是不是她。
Girl don't mind suffering with you, she only mind whether she's the one

文章來源：feelstory.lovequotes 感動故事

'牛' bed

牛牛's new bed!!!
actually a recycled one to be exact ... ah papa has been sleeping on that bed for don't know how many years already lo...
Ah bi has graduated to new bed ... since when?
since he's tall & gung-ho enough to climb out of the baby cot..

It's a very nice place to sleep ...
I've tried sleeping there =) doze off immediately before ah bi ... haha

if you are the boss, what will you think?

Yesterday some 'unforeseen' thing happened.
It made me want to dig a hole in the ground & put my head in there.. haha

My daily routine include pumping milk in the office in the morning before I even start work.
Yesterday was no exception. Except that yesterday in a hurry (as I was a little late) I've button my work shirt one-side-up.
If you are wondering how it look like, try imagine buttoning the 2nd button to 1st hole and thereafter. You will have a sidelooped collar & a shirt with 1 end shorter than the other end.
"Nothing too embarassing ... just go ladies & button it back" I hear you said. Yup, that was what I did when it happened a few weeks back.

But ... but this time, I landed myself in a 'smelly mud pool'.
I was sitting at my place when my big big boss came over to ask me something.
He continue talking while walking away, so in my attempt to confirm with him whether any action need to be taken at our end, I did the most 'wrong' thing, I stood up and walked towards him. He say no worry, he'll ask the other department to do.
The 'dumb' me then went back to my place and continue with work.

It was only about 15 minutes later, when I walked into the ladies and saw myself in the mirror, I laughed my gut out. No wonder my boss was looking at me strangely just now.
How in the world can I do such a 'crazy thing'?
There goes 'the undone' of all my past efforts for the whole year.

the question is 'How can you trust a staff who can't even button her own shirt properly manage a project?' ... A very valid question.

Now I have another question for myself ' How can a mother teach her children button shirt properly when she (who don't know have buttoned shirt how many thousand time) can create new 'style of buttoning'? haha..

ps. last time a friend of mine told me I'm like a '傻大姐' ... which I denied but now I can't help but agree fully with her....lol

to start all over again

Has not really exercised for a almost 2 years already ... (not including doing bicep curl weight bearing 10kg while climbing up the stairs every night without fail)

Come Nov (tomorrow actually) I'm starting all over again ... to start from scratch. Establishing a rountine to exercise ... real exercise.

weekday plan : take stair up 8 floors every morning (except when I'm really late or when my bag gets excessively heavy.

weekend plan : go walk 又好 go jog 又好 with friends & family (those in shopping malls are not counted though..hehe) ... and what the h*ll am I doing here right in front of PC at this a.m?

the reason : blame it on Encik Cholesterol

this thing could kill me ..

among the 101 things waiting for me to do

I call it the 'never ending fold' cause there will be a new batch before I finish the previous batch.
So have to stop here to go 'open work'

good things in life

Am happy for my sis

One found a job.
One's getting married.

What else could I ask for?

Mami, without you around, it wasn't an easy journey after all.
But I'm so glad we made it through as a family...the ups and the downs and all that's in between.

Liu Wei

I'll let the video do the talking.

Eulogy

Eulogies for Mrs. Lee Kuan Yew (Kwa Geok Choo)

from husband Mr. Lee Kuan Yew

http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20101006-240957.html

from son Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong

http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20101006-240973.html

from grandson Li Shengwu

http://www.edvantage.com.sg/edvantage/features/people/469290/A_grandson_s_farewell.html

home improvement

My horoscope - the crab come bite me again. After being bitten, I willingly part with money to buy (useless) stuffs to make my home a home (beside the fact that I'm real lazy with houseworks)

SEAFOOD...I miss u

really in need of my seafood supply ....Argghh

like bamboo clams with ginger & spring onion

like stir fried lala with ginger & onion

like oyster covered in melted cheese

like salt baked meat crab..

I'm sorry but the race rules seem to have changed

** these are pure opinion of the poster, please need not proceed if you already disagree with the title **
I'm not sure but from my observation of the people around me, the rat race rules seem to have changed.
If you allow me to call it the 'NEW rat race'..
From what I observe,
it's no longer who's got the most enviable highest flying & paying job
it's no longer who cliche the best deal
it's no longer who owns the most properties and luxurious item
now the race has a new face ... the OLD rat race characteristics & rules are now secondary if not tertiary.
it seems that now
it's about the importance of family & love ones
it's about personal development & personal well being
it's about who settle down faster
it's about how fast you start a home & family
it's about how much time you spend with your children
it's about how well you can leave work at where it should be left (ofice) and spend more time with family & love ones

Looking back, these new trends seem to have started 2-3 years back and is catching up faster nowadays.
Perhaps my observation are skewed towards the age group I'm in.
Perhaps my observation are biased because I observe selectively of the people whom I know and not a big sample enough to make major conclusions.

Anyway, we choose how we want to lead our lives.. race or no race

most beautiful moment

I couldn't not share this

It captures the moment baby Jonathan, who's just been fitted with a cochlear implant, hears his mother's voice for the 1st time. This little miracle baby face just lights up.

ps. thank you to the donor and doctor that gave Jonathan a chance. This 1 minute is really really beautiful that they make me cry

out of mind again

@ times, when I'm out of my mind,

I'll do things that I'd never thought I'll do

Like this one?

someone put her flowers @ the ladies (hopefully the person who gave this flower to the someone didn't see this pic)

and I put a note to that someone =)

一年

不知不觉, 一年过去了

这一年来, 吃的苦也不少

不过还是甜的比较多

还好,我所坚持努力付出的一切是值得的


我不敢要求多,只希望老天爷保佑孩子们身体健康,出入平安

那我就很感谢和心满意足了

我想念的

其实真的非常想念曾经拥有过的一小片绿地,

那用了很多时间和精力来造成属于自己的小天堂

希望我依然还有机会再次让孩子们拥有这小天堂 =)

goodies from Bookfest '10

Goodies from Bookfest '10 ... suprisingly there isn't anything for myself.

Total damage RM107.70

丁当-亲人

another song to my fav list =)

merdeka day 快乐

pic source :www.flag-of-malaysia.com/

To me, it all means remembering where we come and how far we have come along ..
Despite all flaws (which country do not have?), I still see hope (albeit a little one) ..
Just don't let that little flame goes off else merdeka day means nothing except 1Day off.

merdeka day 快乐!!
Make Merdeka Day meaningful to our children ... make them feel there's no place like home.
"Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik negeri sendiri"

worth it?

I'm one that seldom wear bracelet, they are usually too big for me.
However I bought these at pasar malam the other day ...
because I couldn't resist buying
and I keep consoling myself that I'll make sure I wear it when have dinners or functions.

Would you like to take a guess @ how much per bracelet did I bought?
Choki Choki x 5 for the closest answer =)

Updated : choki choki won =D Price per bracelet : RM2 =D

wish upon a star (everyday) ?

I'm out of my mind again...as always

Perhaps unconsciously I'm hoping / filing up a gap of something I missed out earlier part of my life ... like someone always say I'm always 比人慢

suddenly had the urge to fold many many many stars and put them in a jar..
I was thinking if one star can bring happiness to people around me for one day, I wouldn't mind folding alot alot alot of stars.

perhaps all I need to continue living is a little hope in everything, so that I've something to look forward to each day.

Now the 'twinkle twinkle little star' song is playing in my mind ... ah bi likes this song =D

how many pairs do I actually need?

The picture above reflect the number of shoes I bought this year alone...

Averagely almost a pair a month for the past 7 months ... crazy?

I've calculated ... I've total 10 pairs of shoes (slippers included).

Apart from those in picture above, I've 1 pair of sandals, 1 pair of walking shoes, 1 pair of working shoes & 1 pair of running shoes.

The only consolation is that most of my shoe does not cost more than RM60.

Each pair of shoes seem to have special meaning for me because I always remember where I got them & at what prices ..hehe

From left to right of pic :

1. Blue sandals from Tesco @ RM13.90

2. Bronze 1 inch dinner shoe from Sogo (member's day sales) @ RM16.90

3. White Crocodile walking shoes from Sogo (warehouse sales) @ RM39.90

4. Crocs-like walking shoes from pasar malam @ RM15.00

5. Beige ribbon 1 1/2 inch shoes from Jusco (member's day sales) @ RM21.90

6. Black heels working shoes from Sogo (member's day sales) @ RM16.90

overall I'm happy with my purchases although a pair of shoes a month is rather outrageous...LOL

Now that I think back...I've only got a pair of feet.

So, a promise to myself : No more buying shoes for 2010.

we can make a difference

“I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something that I can do.”
Helen Keller (1880-1968);
Author, Lecturer, Activist

“We can do no great things - only small things with great love.”
Mother Teresa (1910-1997);
Founder Of The Missionaries Of Charity

Never underestimated the power of one ... for what we do can make a difference.
This is how I brainwash myself to believe ... so that I can start and end my day peacefully...LOL

our room has become OUR room

Those charts are some of the bedtime routine before ah bi goes to sleep.
Ah bi will point to one picture for mama to tell what is it.
Ah bi likes them, papa don't know like or not, mama likes them the most (because she choose one).

oh, btw, if you are interested to get the charts and wallpapers..
the charts I got it from popular warehouse sales @ RM1 each
the wallpapers - numbers 0 to 9 (1 set = RM1.90) @ Mr DIY shop
the wallpapers - winnie the pooh collection (1 set = RM2.00) @ pasar malam
It doesn't take alot to make a child happy (and in this case mama too), don't you agree? =)

奉獻

listening to this song brings back many fond memories of my childhood..
my mum used to like to hum this song to us..
love this song very much (and this video is very nice too).
hope you enjoy it as much as I do..

ps. don't know whether is it coincidence or what..tomorrow would have been my mum's 53rd birthday and a friend of mine posted this song on facebook (out of so so many songs).

tomorrow is really a bonus

why do I say 'Tomorrow is really a bonus'?

Last Friday morning, my colleague shared with me what happened to her aunty's child.
The child is only 10 year old ++ and was found not breathing anymore (dead is a cruel word to use here) on thursday night on his bed, just like sleeping.
The child does not have any medical history and later was confirmed by doctor did not take any medication / poison and does not have any injury.
It was classified under sudden death.

what if we are the loved one of this child? what if we don't even get to say goodbye to our loved ones? what if we fall asleep forever? What if someone so dear to us just left without us knowing what happened?

Someone I know always say :
明天能够睁开眼睛算是赚一天

isn't tomorrow really a bonus??

same same but different different

I do not know how & when did I started having this 'unusual' habit.
Whenever I see the clothes I like, I will not mind buying the same clothes but different colours. In fact, I'll buy same clothes with different colours.

Perhaps I'm lazy to choose which colour suits me best when I like almost all colours (I'm a colour person, remember...lol).
Perhaps I've never mind people saying I wear the same clothes everyday.

LOL...this is only one set of many examples. If you happen to have a chance to look at my working clothes, I have 3 sets of short sleeves working blouse of the same design but different colour.

All these while I thought this is something very normal until someone told me that buying the same clothes even with different colour is something that girls / ladies never do. Hey, here I'm doing it all these years...LOL.

Oh..if you still remember our 15/3/2003 Genting trip, I was wearing the same clothes - white on the 1st day and red on the 2nd day.
I didn't realised until ah dear highlighted to me.
haha...talking about people who are lazy to even decide what to wear ... LOL

ps. on a separate note, I really really really miss those trips ... our clothes colour combination in the photo also very nice =p

seem familiar?

For those of you working on projects, does this seem VERY familiar to you? =p
found this while clearing my emails today

Due to the picture size, I'll retype what each picture represent..

1st row from left to right
1. How the customer explained it
2. How the project leader understood it
3. How the enginner designed it
4. How the programmer write it
5. How the sales executive describe it

2nd row from left to right
6. How the project was documented
7. What operation installed
8. How the customer was billed
9. How the helpdesk supported it
10. What the customer really need.

我一点也不觉得辛苦, 只是觉得很幸福

* pic source : Mothercare brochure

In support of World Breastfeeding Week (1st - 7th August 2010)

'Every ounce counts'

one of the best moments in life ...

Many people asked why do I go through all the trouble

but to me, it's no trouble at all .. It's something I love to do.

I've never mind that
when I'm @work, I have to use my lunch time for this
when I need to attend trainings (in hotel/training centre), I'll have to call up 1st to make prior arrangements.
when I go for shopping, I'll have to find baby & nursing friendly places.
when I'm on the go, I'll have to make sure the car shade is in the car.
when my breastpump malfunction / rosak, I call the whole world for help.
And when I finally found help, i'll have to bring the pump to LRT station far away for people to repair.
when I go to work / come home, I have to lug all the 'neccesities' up and down in rain/shine (at times climb stairs to 8th floor)
when I intend to have a full night sleep, I have to wake up few times throughout the night.

...there are just so many 'when...' that may makes me mind, but they just don't.


我一点也不觉得辛苦, 只是觉得很幸福

lessons life taught me ... by Refgina Brett

what this lady has to say is just so so true..

Written By Refgina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".

26. Always choose life.

27. Forgive everyone everything.

28. What other people think of you is none of your business..

29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.

30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

31. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

32. Believe in miracles.

33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

36. Your children get only one childhood.

37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

41. The best is yet to come.

42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

43. Yield.

44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

everytime

I realised that everytime when I have something bothering my mind
or when I've lots of thinking to do,
I'll start doing some 'stupid' things that does not require thinking like -colouring-, -folding stars-, -cross stitch-, -kneading-

Here I'm staring blankly at the mid year progess career dialogue form which I could not think of anything to write and start folding stars instead. It will be a one-to-one session tomorrow.
I do not know what are my strengths displayed, what are my areas for development and what are my training needs in the next 6 months. Is all these really important and really matters? Or are we doing this just for the sake of doing??

when it's over...

Nothing beats the joy of seeing on our statement
installment 12/12 (or 24/24 or 36/36 or 60/60)
when we are finally free from that bondage.

have you been given a chance?

or have you given others a chance to give you a chance?

happiness in various sizes

images from : ilovebacteria.com

Yesterday and the day before yesterday, I've redeemed my childhood and got my happiness for RM2 =)

My happiness came in various shapes and sizes and they were floating in the air. Even my little one loves them too ....who doesn't love happiness? =)

Avatar-ed

At last, I've finished watching Avatar after 3 attempts to finish watching the whole movie. Nice.
LOL ... I know how slow and outdated I'm =p
From the movie, I've learnt that if we are sincere, everything will come our way (referring to good ones of course).

同时也为我的另外一个儿子感到骄傲..

.... 记者去采访刚刚当选美国总统的杜鲁门的母亲：“你一定为自己的儿子感到骄傲！”母亲说：“是的，我为他感到骄傲，同时也为我的另外一个儿子感到骄傲！”记者很好奇，追问道：“请问夫人，你的另外一个儿子在那里高就？”母亲指了指门外一个正在拔草的，农夫模样的男人说：“他就在哪里！”

translated :
Reporter interviewed the mother of America's newly elected president, Truman : You must be proud of your son.
His mother said : Yes, I'm proud of him. At the same time, I'm also proud of my other son!
The curious reporter further queried : May I ask Madam, where is your other son working?
The mother pointed outside the door towards a man who's pulling grass (weed) who looked like a farmer and said : he's there!

I see the WISDOM of a mother raising her children & the unbias unconditional love of a mother for her children..

something so simple yet so meaningful...

有多少爱可以重来

Like this song and this guy just made it better.
Eye opening. Respect.

Yesterday...Today

Yesterday 21/7/10 would have been a turning point in my life if I had earlier didn't let go an opportunity to earn more. Had I made the move... I'll not be sitting at the LDC (Learning & Development Centre) today attending a 'Thinking Out of Box' training.
If I didn't let go earlier .... I'll not have attended this training
If had I not attending this training
... I'll not have learnt that my decision may be what's best for this point in time...
... I'll not have learnt that I shall never regret whatever I've chosen
... I'll not have learnt that I may have came out of a box but jumped into another box ... which is not a very wise thing to do.

I think life has made such an arrangements for me ... if I want to gain something, I'll have to let go something but if I had let go, life give me some gain.
I see through many 'realities of life' in this training
I see how we are becoming prisoners of pattern and norm.
I see how we blindly follow the herd.
I see what's important and what's not.
Hopefully I'll see more tomorrow... this training is empowering.

the suprise breakfast

At first glance, everything seem so ordinary

Wait till you take the 1st 2 piece of bread and eat ...

sometimes just a little gesture like this is all I need to be happy =)

SOMEONE made me this 4-piece bread for breakfast ... Thank you very much SOMEONE ...lol

(oh don't get me started, I have no problem walloping 4 pieces of bread =p )

my present to me

I took the courage and effort to read this book ... enjoying every page although I took longer than usual to complete one story as compared to english book.

However, I'm amaze I can actually read and understand those short stories... I'm so happy.

I discovered that :

I love chinese books and

I love me more each day! =D

why we love Korean / Taiwan love drama series & movies

Before I begin, I like Korean or Taiwan drama / series / movies but I don't think I've watched enough to come to these conclusions I'm about to share.

Nevertheless, these are just some personal opinions :
I think it's because :

1. They give us hope (to our real life)

• Like how those rich handsome young man will fall for average Jane or vice versa.
• Or like how 2 people from 2 totally different background can be together.
• Or like how one is willing to sacrifice everything for another.

2. They strike our heartstring

• There must be something that hinder the couple from being together
• The couple must face objections from family members, members of opposite sex(competitors) and anyone else.
• The couple need to go through alot to be together .... the more the better

3. Where everything is possible

• love relationship usually develop from love-hate relationship
• the male lead will be everything a girl dream of ... so caring, so protective, so in love with the girl.
• the female lead will be everything a girl wish they can become ... they can be very average and yet very unique, strong, tough, do not conform to normalities, kind hearted, helpful and the best part is they always get into trouble (due to other people faults). And they always have those beautiful eyes that convey a thousand emotions..

4. every turn has to be a dramatic one

• storyline have to take 360 degree turn if not 180 degree
• the most unimaginable things will happen one after another... it has to be like 'sudah jatuh mesti ditimpa tangga'

ps. I'm one that seldom 'chase' drama series, but lately I lose the battle to this particular series : 下一站,幸福 .... lol

see what I found ... 男左女右

for the last 2 weekends, we have attended wedding dinner and wedding ceremony of a long time friend Jo N.

still remember the 1st time we heard about the beginning of this love story was during a dinner in Taiping on 19/5/2007. And I still can remember (from pic) the seating arrangement on that eventful night.

during then, we were all still single ... can just plan overnight and travel to wherever we want to...

Then as I look through the albums, I saw Cameron Oct 2006 folder.

Jo N is considered 'special guest' as compared to us 'regulars' of local & overseas trips.

She's so busy that we seldom get the chance to have her join our trips. This is one of those.

Looking at these photos make me smile from within my heart ... those were the times and here we are years later still like before except for some good changes.

Oh, I just want to let you all know...I miss those trips very much...

from the above 4 photos, then we have 9 single bachelor / bachelorette, now we have 4-3-2 combination (I believe you know what I'm referring to right?)

As for these last 2 photos, I found something :

based on 男左女右 (man left woman right), the sequence of married is so far as per in photo .... eerrr..I have nothing to say anymore =p

talking about this topic, I have another of our trip story to share but that's for another post..

writing this while pura pura watching football ... when I'm actually updating blog & watching 下一站,幸福 haha