Friday, January 14, 2005
I'm studying again ..
Although had been quite some time since I last betul betul study, I'm looking forward to start =)
I'm taking CFP (Certified Financial Planner) this intake.
When I finish Module 1, I'll be an AFP (Associate Financial Planner)
Santa Claus made my wish come true .. at last I got my fees =)
Thank you soo much
ps. I'm studying part time so pray hard I'll pass, treat you all makan =P
no electricity = no work
Initially we thought the renovation people accidentally pull the wrong wire or accidentally turned off wrong switch ... they had been doing something the whole day since morning.
actually me feeling very happy when know it's actually a black out.
why wo?? no need to work ma ... sure happy la, in fact we sat & chatted
even told my collegue " I hope TNB not so efficient, take their own sweet time " hehe =P
suddenly, the painter who asked for MILO came over
and said "Satu Malaysia tak de elektrik la ... satu Malay..sia tau"
we asked "betulkah?"
he answered " betul lah, kita tadi ada telefon itu Klang & Petaling Jaya, tak de elektrik juga "
... then me wondering ... Klang & Petaling Jaya = satu Malaysia??
but what amazed me was that upon hearing that statement, almost everyone with handphone, took their handphones & started dialing don't know to who ... but everyone wanted to ask the same question
" ei, your place got electricity or not? "
then almost everyone didn't get through and asked
" why cannot call through wan, like network busy "
I think I know why network busy, sure loh ... everyone trying to get someone on the line to ask the same question ... typical Malaysians gua (ok la .. me included lah =P
some collegues who are out for lunch even called back to report that the place that they were at also ' no electricity '
ngam ngam today SOGO got pre-sales wo ... so many shoppers (including quite a number of collegues) were caught in SOGO sales without electricity so much so that SOGO had initially decided to extend the 1-day pre-sales till tomorrow
have to thank foong ling for helping me buy ... really trouble you.
only 2 lifts working so many ladies with big big small small SOGO plastic bags waited for quite some time.
one thing we don't like when no electricity... air cond not working .. very hot & humid ... don't know where to get fresh air. Everyone were chatting & fanning ourselves like in kopitiam.
we prayed very hard for the electricity to come back only around 5pm because it's about time to go home & KTM / LRT need electricity to be send us home.
We are not as 'gungho' as our friends ... who descended from 46th floor by stair for lunch
http://woosahh.blogdrive.com . really salute !!!
Black out like this light up our lives, don't you agree?? ^^!
We'll see what the authorities have to say.
1st day at work
previously she had tried working as promoter during school days,
however this is the 1st time she's working in an office environment (although for temp)
before that I had actually tried to pursuade her to 'help ah jie build ah jie's business'
this is what she said : I work outside can learn to help you build business faster ah.
which is true, very true.
She'll need to learn by herself how's the world out there.
during then, the night before interview she asked a lot of questions like "ah jie, tomorrow interview wear what clothes? I don't have office attire wo. You think your clothes I can muat? "
" ah jie, I also don't have office shoe, can borrow me or not?"
" ah jie, tomorrow if they ask this & this question, how to answer? "
" ah jie, ......
(cannot blame her, cause I was like that too la... last time =P
lucky she didn't ask " ah jie, tomorrow can you go for the interview ah? " else I pengsan =P
After the 1st day at work, she looked tired so I ask " why look so tired? boss give you a lot of work ah? who dare to bully my mei mei? "
sister : " I very sleepy oh, jie. This morning wake up very early. today the girl teach me many things and ask me do many things. She today take half day leave wo "
me : now you know work 'not that easy' leh? (note me didn't use the word - susah) but you sure no problem la ... sup sup sui only ma ho.
she smiled but I know all these will make her a stronger person.
today was her 2nd day at work, and she brought home some work from office.
she didn't tell me, but I saw it on her table. I wanted to, but I didn't ask for I know she has her ways or solutions.
perhaps she's more of a perfectionist ... which sometimes make things tougher.
but I'm glad she's learning and growing very fast, even faster than this 'ah jie'
let's see what she says tomorrow =)
Thursday, January 13, 2005
MILO macamana beli??
The wall near my place was painted I think during last saturday when I'm not working.
aiyoyo ... don't know how they paint??
my table, my files, my plants all kena white 'polka dots' like snowing... lucky PC not kena
wah ... to scrub those 'bintik bintik' don't know took how long already.
want to complain also don't know who to tell.
today lagilah after lunch ... although there are other collegues,
one of the painting assistant (don't know bangladeshi or from india) came stand right in front my desk, looked down and asked
painter : saya mau minum MILO, macamana beli?
me : hah MILO macamana beli??? MILO yang minum punya kah?
( - my mistake ... I thought he wanted me to 'ta pau' MILO for him. Then it struck me that he's actually referring to the MILO from vending machine at the pantry )
painter : ya, yang minum ... (then he pointed at the vending machine direction)
painter : itu macam mana beli, nak letak wang mana, pilih macam mana?
me : oh... itu ah... tak payah letak wang punya. ( I was actually laughing though I know not good to laugh)
painter : habis macam mana keluar?
I lead him to the pantry
me : u tengok sini, u suka minum apa, u tengok huruf & nombor, lepas tu tekan sahaja. dia akan bancuh. kalau MILO, u tekan C5. boleh?
painter : oh, tekan sahaja boleh. tak masuk wang. sorry saya tak tahulah
me : tak pa, sekarang u tahu, u nak minum boleh ambil sendiri loh
as we walk out from the pantry,
we bumped into his 'tauke'
tauke : (in cantonese) - jing shek tao yeh yam, kong nie yao mm zhou ... meaning only know how to curi minuman, kerja never buat.
I laughed and the painter laughed too though I don't know whether he understand
some more he tell 'tauke' - " boss, ini MILO manyak sedap oh. FREE punya, tekan sahaja "
If just a cup of MILO can make a person so happy,
I don't mind guiding them how to use the vending machine
but if the supplies in vending machine finish very fast,
please don't come looking for me =P
you recognise me??
I think I saw a college friend of mine which has left for oversea to further studies.
Lost contact already but I can still remember his name as his surname " S'ng " as is very unique.
I was looking at him trying to confirm whether I got the right person.
I was caught looking at him so I smile lo hoping maybe he can recognise me.
but then he gave me a strange look wo ... may be thinking this person 'something wrong' punya
when I tried to walk nearer to him to ask whether are you " so & so"?
that ' green colour man' on the traffic light start moving liao and he cepat cepat cabut ... haha
I had at that time pondering whether to 'kejar' & ask ... but by the time I decided ... he went into the building liao.
If you ask me whether I betul betul recognise my friend - S'ng, I think I can be about 85% sure it's him ... hasn't change much.
but then my hesitation during then made me lost the opportunity to meet back my old friend.
so, please friends, if you see me looking at you trying to recognise you or smiling at you (especially when I'm without my specs)
please don't look at me as though I'll eat you
It makes me look a bit stupid though =P
Monday, January 10, 2005
unexpected
due to some unforeseen circumstances, chai yee wasn't able to watch the scheduled concert on 7/1/05.
Since doesn't want the ticket to be wasted, I was fortunate to be invited along by foong ling on thursday 6/1/05.
after addy getting some 'ying kong pang' ... neh, those sticks that will glow in the dark wan leh
we queued to go in. we were told 'cannot bring bottle water' . Soon yeng's mother (aunty) offer to put water bottles in her bag but with foong ling's & mine, the bag really looked a bit bulky.
at the entrance, our plot was foiled, they wanted to check inside aunty's bag ... so we had to take out the bottles loh ... really sorry to trouble aunty.
sitting next to aunty wasn't as 'restricted' as I thought. In fact, she actually led me through those 'sing along, clap along & ying kong pang waving' session.
I really let myself go because I enjoyed the concert very much till foong ling said "I think you high already "
nevermind the sore throat, hoarse voice and 'lenguh' arms waving 'ying kong pang' after the 1st session, nothing can stopped me from singing & replying to hacken & alan.
the songs by these 2 singers are very nice ... especially those old songs which I happened to grow up with ... my babysitter's son used to play alan tam's songs everyday without fail during the 1980s. Those songs brought back many many happy memories.
It was an enjoyable concert with 2 encores, although the 1st one was expected, we did not expect them to come back onstage for a second time.
got some tips from expert concert watcher.. mr.addy .. that concert's not end till they open the field spotlight (which is quite true wor =)
the second encore, we stood on the plastic chairs, sang our heart out & wave as vigorously. It was a superb concert with superb ending =)
aunty joined us as well and were singing & waving happily... it's so fulfilling to see our parents enjoying themselves ( wished my parents had the opportunity to watch too =)
This concert changed my perception towards concerts.
If you ask me whether I'll watch other concerts
"I will considering my budget"
after sending soon yeng's mum & bro home, we went for 'yam cha' at ABC. There we chatted alot & ate alot too.... cheese nan, chicken sandwich, fried buns & 4 glass of drinks.
maybe the chicken rice 'mm gao hao' ah ... we used too much energy singing, clapping & waving liao =)
thank you very much for the enjoyable night =)
I was very happy, and I heard what you said foong ling ... that you are happy that I'm happy.
'I am happy too that you are happy that I'm happy' =)
ps. addy, your cactus (and bonus ... money plant) from cameron get liao ... see when you free or whether want me to pass to anyone.
红日
* 命运就算颠沛流离 命运就算曲折离奇
命运就算恐吓着你做人没趣味
别流泪心酸 更不应舍弃
我愿能 一生永远陪伴你
*Repeat * # 一生之中兜兜转转
那会看清楚
傍徨时我也试过
独坐一角像是没协助 在某年那幼小的我
跌倒过几多几多落泪在雨夜滂沱
一生之中弯弯曲曲我也要走过
从何时有你有你伴我给我热烈地拍和
像红日之火 燃点真的我 结伴行
千山也定能踏过 让晚风 轻轻吹过
伴送着清幽花香像是在祝福你我
让晚星 轻轻闪过 闪出你每个希冀如浪花
快要沾湿我 #
Repeat * #
Repeat * five times
爱在深秋
爱在深秋
如果命里早注定分手
无需为我假意在挽留
如果情是永恒不朽 怎会分手
* 以后让我倚在深秋 回忆逝去的爱在心头
回忆在忘记中的我 今天曾泪流
请抬头 抹去旧事 不必有我 不必有你
爱是可发不可收
你是可爱到永远
我是真心舍不得你走
有是站你倚在深秋
回忆别去的爱在心头
回忆在这一刻的你 也曾泪流
'jie jie don't bully me wor, I'll bring you to many beautiful places"
supposed to wake up, prepare & wake my parents up.
but maybe the weather very cold, very nice to sleep ... with those foam blanket
I didn't even hear my handphone alarm ringing, neither do I hear my parents waking up & started preparing to visit the 'chinese doctor'. I was basically sleeping like a log (as they put it)
I think I was dreaming when my father woke me at about 8.30am and said " faster wake up loh, pack and then we go .. late already "
but the strange thing is
my car is speaking to me in my dream
" jie jie, you don't bully me wor. I'll bring you to many many beautiful places "
apparently I thinked I dream about almost driving my car down a river (can't remember details)
makes me feel gulity for treating my car so badly =P
on our way back, I told my parents about the dream this morning, so my dad decided to buy the car registration number (you know la...who will forego chance to fatt choy oh)
and guess what ... just now, I heard my sister jumping with joy ... I asked why?
" ah jie, you see you see, our car number ah ... hahaha .... "
" ya wor, better ask daddy got buy or not. After no buy how? "
Although just a small amount, we are happy & excited.
and I think I understand what our car is trying to tell me
try imagining a car speaking to you in a child's voice
" jie jie, you don't bully me wor. I'll bring you to many many beautiful places "
" I'll take good care of you, car car "
I can't stop smiling ... I'm overjoyed =D
after expiry date, still can eat?
so I told my sister
" mei, today we make popiah loh, want or not? "
my sis : also not enough ingredients, also didn't buy & prepare, how to make?
me : aiya, simply make simple wan lah with what we have
my sis : still cannot la, ah jie ... you see, this one expiry date is 31/12/2004 wor (pointing at the date at the bottom of package)
me : ok wan la...this wan popiah wrapper only, a few days after expiry should be ok. If not try away whole package very waste
my sis : ya also wo, so we make another type la, wrap & fry then should be ok wan ho
I hope so lah, cause now everything in stomach liao ... maybe digested already
ps. I don't always eat expired food wan, only this time exceptional (depending the nature of the food).
Expired food may be harmful to our bodies
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
shopping vouchers !!!
I'll say " cash "
but if I'm not given any choice
I'll say " vouchers make me very happy as well " =D
last day of 2004 ... least expected ... still can get vouchers wan wo (don't worry me checked the validity already - not year 2004 ;P
passed to me in an envelope by senior at office ... 5 x rm20 denomination vouchers
win lucky draw ah??
no lah... me where got so lucky, hehe ... pandai pura pura efficient only ma ^^ !
not a huge amount ... but still can buy lots of FOODS
and a table fan.
thank you very much !! =)
A woman will pay rm2 for an rm5 item she doesn't need
while a man pay rm5 for an rm2 item he needs
wondering whether true?? =)
could be? =)
Husband & wife team
her name not 'renovation aunty' but I chat till forgot ask people name lah
nature of their project more towards wiring & 'backbone' setup.
this husband & wife team is really great ... has handled wiring projects for UOBM.
just in case, you are wondering how they looked like ... like normal grandma & grandpa
aunty said it's because "our work has quality, we complete on time and management can trust us"
this couple is about 50+ years old ... but both still very strong climbing up & down using walkie talkie. watching them work & communicate is eye-opening.
both has covered projects at various branches throughout malaysia and aunty knows more management & staffs than us.
we talked about everthing from how some management & staff treated them, enjoying life, driving & racing, korean series, working in bank, about cooking but nothing beat the joy of aunty when she talked about her children & her only grand daughter.
even asked her husband to play the recordings of her 3 yrs old grandaughter reciting chinese poems & singing over the handphone.
behind the successful husband & wife team, I see doting grandparents.
I realised it's not easy for them to clinch the deals & gain the trust of such a huge organisation.
In fact, aunty was actually complaining in front of uncle that they had not had lunch. and it was about 6pm.
Alas, I don't have any tidbits in my drawer, so the most can offer is a cup of coffee.
really salute them =)
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
short lunch long stories
hehe ... that's me only lah actually ;P
never had the chance to really talk with cheryl
but me decided to invite her for lunch today ... sad to say, tomorrow's her last day at work
she'll be doing her Masters in Australia.
a bit 'mm seh tak' but ' bertemu & berpisah adat manusia biasa' ma
over lunch today, it dawned on me that sometimes quiet people have more to say ... when given the opportunities or when they feel like 'opening up'
but through cheryl, I see many things ... for instance her loyalty to the organisation, her sense of belonging to her department, her gratitude and her enthusiasm for contribution & productivity .. which sadly all quite lacking in me ;P
(if I happen to be employer, I would like to have member like her in my organisation as well)
It was indeed a short lunch with long stories
IF ONLY we had more lunches earlier ....
Friday, December 31, 2004
see you all next year ya !!!
2005 will be another great year !!!
starting 12.01 am 1st Jan 2005 ... remember write date have to put "05" liao oh =P
* especially those writing cheques, don't backdate ... later become stale cheque, or waste stamp duty pulak *
we will achieve what we want =)
see u next all next year ya !!
All the best to all !!!
for you, my friend
this song suddenly start 'singing' in my mind.
I guess I want to dedicate this song to this friend ...
I'm not sure whether this friend can read chinese ... but I wanted to let him understand the lyrics ... so me doing simple translation with my limited chinese
( just in case you want to listen to this mandarin song ... it's sang by Jordan Chan - one of popular chinese R& B singer )
literally translated
title : women should not let men be so exhausted
I can't find heaven, neither can I pluck the moon
sorry, I let you down (dissappointed)
your wishes, very difficult for me
there are more men better than me, and I admit I'm ordinary
I've tried my very best
your stare, please don't let them be so cold
to continue giving, I can still withstand (tahan)
I'm not afraid of toughness (susah), no matter how tough
as long as you're satisfied, but when will you be satisfied
love till very tired, really very 'tough'
women should not let men be so exhausted
although you are my everything
also don't let me feel ... loving you is sad
love till very tired, really very 'tough'
have not ever heard you praise me (console me)
although whatever I do (did) are (were) waste
at least let me keep my dignity (maruah)
love till very tired, really very 'tough'
I'm not afraid of toughness, but how will you be satisfied
love till very tired
ps. dear friend
"SOMEDAY SOMEONE SOMEHOW will very much appreciate your efforts" =)
* my humble opinion lah*
女人不该让男人太累
曲:包小松 词:施人诚/包小松 编:王豫民
我找不到天堂 也摘不到月亮
对不起 让你失望
你的渴望 对我是很难
太多人比我强 也承认我平凡
我已经并命追赶
你的眼神 请别那么冷淡
就算再付出 我也撑得住
我不怕辛苦 苦到什地步只要你满足
但你何时满足
爱得好累 真的好苦
女人不应该让男人太累
虽然你是我的一切 也别让我感觉 爱你很可悲
爱得好累 真的好苦
从来听不见你一句赞美(安慰)
就算我作的都白费
至少自尊让我保留一点
爱的好累 真的好苦
我不怕辛苦 可是 怎样你才满足
爱的好累
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
* sigh ... *
tomorrow have to go work already.
have to wake up early early morning again
" why last day of 2004 also go back work wan? why don't take leave as well? "
I had been asked the above questions for numerous times (lost count already)
and my standard reply : you think I don't want meh? but boss don't give ... say me on leave too long liao, have to let other collegues take 31/12/04 - New Year Eve. (hehe ... which is quite true also lar ... cannot be so selfish =)
never mind la ... have to go back see the plant also
and wishes collegues all "Happy New Year" =)
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Heart - breaking tsunami
It's very disheartening to see the death toll increasing
and more people reported missing.
my condolences to all victims & their loved ones
the deads were gone but what about those who lost their loved ones to this natural disaster?
perhaps it's time for the world to forget all conflicts (at the moment) and come together to help
the media has been broadcasting about it ...
but please allow me to post again ..
if you would like to help
by contributing to the fund to help disaster victims - The Star Earthquake/Tsunami Relief Fund in association with MRCS (Malaysian Red Cresent Society) & Mercy
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2004/12/28/nation/9756663&sec=nation
"A world without thieves "
Today, tiba tiba feel like watching movie ... wasn't able to look for companions on such a short notice so
went to watch movie alone lo ... quite a new experience
.. it's easier to get good place (since it's a single seat)
.. although it's a bit awkward but who cares leh
"A world without thieves"
.. is the name of the chinese movie
in chinese, it read "Tianxia Wuzei"
The tragi-comic film "A World Without Thieves" touches upon human nature and deals with love between two thieves, Feng said.
It is the inner conflict that the main protagonists face that attracted him to the project, Feng said.
"What I think is meaningful is the contradiction in the story. The young migrant worker travels down a railway which is chock-full of all kinds of thieves. He does not believe in thieves. But the ironic thing is that his belief is safeguarded by two thieves. It is an interesting contradiction. I think the audiences will like that."
"My films have something in common: I am always trying to depict life like a game. This approach is still recognizable in the new film."
(extracted from http://www.asianlabour.org/archives/003288.php )
like the movie & the messages it convey
and of course the beautiful actors & actresses is a bonus
I know, I know now people all talking about 'KUNG FU' watching 'KUNG FU'
hehe ... as usual lo ... me always behind time wan.
.. better late than never gua
Monday, December 27, 2004
can't think of a heading ... (part 1)
Kumpulan Medic - appointment card
Pantai Cheras Medical Centre - appointment card
HUKM - kad temujanji
these cards, they 'intentionally' resurfaced again (while I was looking for a business card) to remind me that
" hey, you have been taking things for granted "
looking through the appointment cards is like going through a chronology of TCA (i guess it stands for To Come Again) complete with date (some with time too).
It was a scary experience but lucky I managed through.
till today, I still don't know what was written both the referral letters from the doctors (they handed me tightly sealed envelopes)
early Dec 2003, felt discomfort & pain .. thinking will be ok ... didn't go to doctor (although no need to pay). I was wrong, pain persist & worsen ... no choice have to go liao.
went to klinik chin, was given some medicine and advised 'to come back a week later'
not much improvement, went back .. gave me another type of medicine but doctor will go on maternity.
so had to go to kump. medic, my collegue siew ying advised me to look for Dr. Chong ... a thorough doctor according to her. Since Dr. Chong is not always at this clinic, will need to make appointment.
true to her words, Dr. Chong was really thorough & careful doctor ... did a thorough check up & asked me lots of questions. Asked me to try some medicine & come back a week later (as shown in appt card)
If I remembered correctly, the pain during then affected my mood, productivity & appetite as well.
when I met Dr. Chong did some examinations again & referring to the report she's holding told me "I'll need to refer you to hospital for more tests"
perhaps my face reflected some 'worries', Dr. Chong assured me that's because they don't have the facilities at the clinic... just normal tests (or so I thought)
Dr. Chong : where do you live?
me : cheras
Dr. Chong : going to Pantai Cheras or HUKM easier for you?
me : either can
Dr. Chong : I'll write you a referral letter to Pantai first since it's under your company panel hospital. (pause) I'll refer you to Dr. Ho
me : oh ...
I waited outside for the letter .. no medicine this time. I was told by the nurse "nanti you buat appointment dekat pantai & pergi cepat cepat. ini you bagi dekat HR, ni you bawa pergi Pantai"
I know I can open the sealed envelope but don't know how to seal back as though not opened before
got to know from collegue has to obtain "Guarantee Letter - GL" from HR first. It was really a hustle ... calling, liasing and collecting.... collected on 17/12/2003 ... took them some time may be because I was new & just confirmed (6 mths probation)
can't think of a heading ... (part 2)
I've been to hospitals before, bringing my mum, visiting but it's a different when I bring myself there for examinations ... cold sweaty palms as I walked as directed by the nurse... was told to wait.
Inside I was required to register, submitted the letters ... the nurse opened the letters but I wasn't able to read them. She took my blood pressure, height & weight. While filling the registration card ....
nurse : you masih sangat muda (indian nurse)
me : (smile) tak lo
nurse : muda lagi apa, tahun 81. Ni dari kump. medic suruh datang ya?
me : ya (tempted to ask ... apa doktor tulis dalam surat?)
nurse : sudah lama sakit ah? kenapa lama baru datang?
me : er... doktor suruh makan ubat tengok dulu
nurse : ni hal tak boleh tunggu lama lama, kena check awal awal
me : ??
nurse : siapa datang sama?
me : sendiri
nurse : ni kenapa tak makan ah? ringan sahaja, lengan pun kecil (when try to measure blood pressure)
me : ada makan
nurse : betul ke tak?
nurse : you duduk dulu, nanti kita orang panggil
waited for some time, trying to read magazines to calm myself. my name was called.. was told to change. Dr.Ho is a nice doctor too, trying to calm me with some casual talks before asking me questions about family background, medical history & so on before starting to examination & scanning. the nurses was very kind.
nurse : you tukar baju dulu, nanti you pergi kat doktor
Dr. Ho : It has been quite some time?
me : since early december
Dr. Ho : ...... (can't remember liao) ... have you completed the course of medicine Dr. Chong gave you?
me : yes
Dr. Ho : any changes / improvement after taking?
me : not really
Dr. Ho : I'll give you a letter, we refer you to HUKM. They will do further test for you. We need to do a biopsy for you
me : (in my mind...not again, I thought everything can 'kow tim' here ... why can't they do biopsy here or cure me here leh? )
can't think of a heading ... (part 3)
called 103 to get HUKM tel no., after a transfer, they put me through the right division as to where the letter was attentioned to.
I was informed no appointment through phone, have to bring letter physically to make appointment for another day cause same day usually appointment full.
(Hah, just go with letter to book appointment?? )
my 1st appointment at HUKM was on 23/12/03, didn't go on 22/12/03
me so 'stupid' last time ... one of my collegue on leave, afraid that my other collegue can't cope, I delayed my trip to HUKM. come to think of it, why didn't I care more for my health so on
23/12/03 - dressed as though I'm going to work, I took a bus to HUKM. HUKM is so big.
When I found the counter, I asked the nurse how should I go about. She directed me to drop the letter at designated place and wait for name to be called to book appointment.
I kept hearing others' name but not mine... till at last ... and I went in front
nurse : ini apa hal? sakit? (obviously lo)
me : mm..sakit, doktor yang bagi surat suruh datang cepat
nurse : (looking at book & pc) you punya appointment lepas krismas baru boleh
me : akak, hari ni boleh?
nurse : (merungut) semua orang pun nak hari ni, tak boleh la. (then she opened the letter) kalau macam itu ... hari ni you kena tunggu sampai patient akhir la sebab appointment semua sudah penuh.
me : boleh (me scare want come another time)
nurse : ni doktor sana kata urgent, kenapa hari ni baru datang, tarikh dekat sini 18/12/03. kenapa tadi tak bagi tau awal awal
me : maaf kak, ada kerja
nurse : tak pa, ini nombor. Atas no. bilik, bawah no. giliran. Ni, tolong isi kad dulu, mana IC.
me : terima kasih kak
nurse : you pergi dekat sana, ambil tekanan darah, tinggi & berat dulu nanti
can't think of a heading ... (part 4)
I proceed to waiting area. When see everyone is with someone, suddenly feel very lonely. lucky had a book with me...trying to concentrate on reading. Usually I'll start chatting but during then I was too tired to talk... had a lot of question mark in my mind.
I still remembered being 'interrogated' by a young man who introduced himself as trainee doctor. Everytime when my answers sounded vague or not sure, he has more questions to follow. As I answered, he started drawing charts & diagram (of which I can understand the family tree only). After that, I was asked to wait again. Each time I go toilet, I had to informed someone to tell the nurse if they look for me.
I waited with many patients till the number dwindle to a few patients.
At last, my name was called. As I walked into the room, I could see my' file' was opened on the table and I see 3 trainees at the corner of the consultation room.
Dr. K (to remain anonymous) repeated some of the questions posted earlier by trainee doctor. I saw the referral letter but dare not stare long and doctor's handwriting hard to read.
Dr. K : siapa datang sama? kenapa tak panggil dia masuk?
me : saya datang sendiri
Dr. K : oh, tak pa ... ingatkan ada orang datang sama. doktor sebelum ni sudah buat pemeriksaan & scan ke? Doktor ada kata apa-apa?
me : .........
Dr. K : kita akan buat satu 'biopsy' ... tak payah bimbang ... cuma sakit sikit sahaja
I was lead to another room through the other door, was told to change. As I lay waiting on the bed / chair, the nurse took my hand and assured me "jangan bimbang, tak de apa apa punya". she even stroke my forehead.
the doctor explained to me that he'll take some cells to be examined, it might be a bit painful but he'll put local anaesthetic.
just when i thought everything has come to an end, the doctor told me to hold a second.
Dr. K : you take a rest first, I'll call Dr. H, our specialist doctor to have a look at your condition
in my mind ... more worries ... why have to call another doctor wan?
Dr. H came in, have a look at my 'file', asked me almost the same questions again, examine again before over to talk to Dr. K. Can't eavesdrop..too far away.
Dr. K came back, explained have to extract another set of cells for further test. assured me everything will be fine.
Initially I was still OK, not until Dr. H told me that they are doing 'biopsy' which are tests to determine whether the cells are cancerous / malignant
I must have cried because Dr.H wiped away my tears.
Dr. H : You must be strong and (I remember nodding my head)
Dr. H : usually people don't get it at this young age which is why we need to do the biopsy and monitor your situation. don't worry, everything will be fine. We'll let you have some medicine, you'll have to come back on 6/1/04. or if we need you to come back urgently, we will give you a call. (which send shiver down my spine)
the nurse helped me to change while the doctors continue their discussion.
as I sat opposite the 2 doctors, I remember asking "tomorrow I'll be going for a trip with my family, can i go? can i swim?
Dr. K : have you told them?
me : No. I don't want them to worry
Dr. H : you should tell them.
me : (i looked at them ... saying nothing)
Dr. H : you can go for trip but not swimming ok & come back to see us
can't think of a heading ... (part 5)
I rushed to the washroom to clear my face.
I remembered sitting at the waiting hall doing nothing except a lot of thinking. Also because I dare not move a lot as the 'ubat bius' slowly hilang.
received a call from my collegue asking how's everything and I told her 'everything's ok'
I had nowhere to go ... not to office (I'm on MC) ... not back home as I'm supposed to be at work as far as my family's concerned.
Waited for a Intrakota bus to town opposite HUKM. I was walking very very slowly.
met with an old lady at the bus stop, we chatted .. she was there for her rheumatism ...transferred from a hospital in Ampang as HUKM more affordable.
she thought I'm a trainee doctor / nurse (wah... I wished that too)
I told her why I was there... and she told me "you must be brave to overcome obstacles in life"
We had lunch together as we has so much to share.
Last year holiday was not enjoyable for me, most of the time I hid and cried in the washroom. but the worse part is having to pretend 'happy' in front of my family.
basically that was one of the 'down'est time .... when everything I do, everywhere I go, I kept thinking what will happen IF... I'm totally lost ... very lost.
every time there's a call on my mobile, my heart will skip a beat ... waiting for the outcome of the report was very very long.
I remembered looking upon the sky ... saw many stars one night (while waiting for the report) and sms a friend (mai) to ask her to go out and look at the stars. She replied me. In fact she called as well ... missed call because I can't bring myself to answer the call for fear I'll burst crying.
now I asked myself "where did you find the gut to go for biopsy alone?"
don't know.
perhaps because I didn't know what biopsy was for during then.
I prayed very hard during then ... for god to give me strength to go through. and I actually made a promise. It's very bad of me actually to pray extra hard only when something happened.
I'm glad I managed to overcome this obstacles and it helps me grow alot.
would like to thank the doctors and nurses who have been very kind and understanding
for all, health is important ... do not take things for granted (I received my gentle reminder)
appreciate what we have now. everything happened for a reason ...
holidays ...
are fun when we are planning and anticipating
are fun also when we are actually enjoying it
but I found out that .. not so fun when nearing end
or when reached home & realised that there are a lot of things to do
sometimes have to tell myself that 'everything was worth it ... was well spent"
in case you are wondering whether I'm referring to the time, money or effort.
I'm referring to all ... yes all =)
and this time round, me came back with bigger biceps & stronger leg muscles =)
pushing wheel chair around is like working out in the gym la (although had never really try gym before .. hehe =P
allow me to just voice my opinion ...
next time if possible, when we see someone on wheel chair, if possible please do not PURPOSELY look at the person for a second or third time, look longer, or look already and then start whispering. (also applicable to person pushing wheel chair)
it makes the person on the wheelchair feel 'uncomfortable' or that they are 'different'
it's not a nice feeling though ...
enough said already =)
It's great to see smile on my family members' faces =)
feel great to hear them talking about our trips ... about the events, the foods and everything... =)
wish I can bring them to places they wish to go next time
I will =)
2005 KLCI - some 'could be' influencing factors
might be of interest to some of you
factors to watch in 2005 for KLCI
- US economy & the strength of dollar
- ringgit re-pegging
- oir prices
- water privatisation projects
- rising interest rates
- china - soft or hard landing?
- GLCs (Government Linked Corporations) delivering results
- fundamentally sound small & mid cap stocks
- banking sector - mergers & acquisitions
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Merry X'mas !!!
best wishes to all of you ya !!
for your wishes to come true =)
enjoy christmas and the holidays !!
I'll be away for a few days, will be spending some quality time with my family ;)
looking forward to the trips
till then, see ya ... =)
a beautiful home atop the hill
that's where the house warming party was held
it's so nice to be there again =)
and it's great to have Soon Yeng back in M'sia ... missed her laughter =)
As we (chai yee & me) walked from the guardhouse to Soon Yeng's house
We saw Jo An & her parents in front, and in front some more, we see lots & lots of people
realised something (or maybe it's just me)
everytime in a situation similar to that on sunday night, I'll start looking for something or someone familiar, although I always say to myself, you can always mingle around and get to know some new friends.
however, my first reaction that night was to look for familiar faces ... mai, kee fong, foong ling, sook yun or whoever I know.
It didn't take long to locate them in the house and we proceed for food (a bit hungry liao =)
We selected a place ... nearest to where dishes are served =P
and started eating & chit chatting =)
then more & more friends coming, more & more chairs added ... we are sitting around in circle.
just out of curiousity ...
do you look for familiar faces when you arrive too?
It's fun to see some exchanges especially some of us who might have not met for quite some time.
As we finished our dinner, Soon Yeng brought out 'CHOCOLATES'
they are no ordinary chocolates but tasty chocolates that came all the way by aeroplane following soon yeng's luggage =P
needless to say, they were delicious =)
thank you very much, soon yeng !! =)
then also flying all the way from china, following terence's luggage were the keychains/ decors
which everyone of us get to opt for the one we prefer
thanks a lot too, terence !! =)
upon popular demand, we toured soon yeng's home.
it's like looking at pages from those 'interior design magazines' =)
many new things added ... more beautiful ones
but the balcony remains as one of my fav spot =)
it's so cool & breezy up there, and it allows us to look very very far away =)
a good place to relax =)
and the massage chair was strategically placed =)
BEAUTIFUL !!!
the words to describe
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING !!
the words to express my gratitude to all especially soon yeng
"tong yuen"
Tomorrow will be 'winter soltice' festival ... a day where we eat 'tang yuen' and grow old by a year =P
For this year, instead of the normal preparation,
we decided to add more colours & flavours
and decided to have it chilled
what's more ... we made the 'balls' into different sizes
my parents will be suprised when they see it tomorrow ... hehe =P
there were 6 colours & flavours
white - glutinuos rice flour flavour (means no flavour lo =P
yellow - mango syrup flavour
orange - orange syrup flavour
pink - red colouring flavour (actually also no flavour lo =P
green - pandan flavour
violet - blackcurrant yoghurt drink flavour
don't what they will turn out to be tomorrow ... hope tasty lah =)
but the kitchen got lots of flour everywhere .. hhahah =D
to those celebrating, enjoy ya !! =)
hope everyone eat 'tong yuen' already ... have longevity, health & happiness whole year round =)
Sunday, December 19, 2004
our friend is back
can't wait to meet her again !!
tonight will be meeting her at her beautiful home =)
and we will have a lot of talking to do =P
see u, soon yeng !! =)
don't look at mr.handsome
Felt like 'aunty' bringing kids to hypermarket ... hehe
most of the shoppers are mother with children
mother with children with grandma
mother with children with neighbour aunties with children (they car pool =)
mother with sister with children
there were couples too ( met siew chui with her boyfriend too =)
but the above is not the main point loh ... =)
I can't believe I hurt my leg because too 'immense' trying to get a good look at that 'handsome' guy ( don't laugh first)
lucky not serious ... only blue back & some blood
was pushing the escalator up the trolley
from Carrefour G floor to 1st floor
after positioning the trolley on the escalator, I just place my arm lightly over the trolley bar
then as we go up, I think I saw a 'handsome' guy walk past on the 1st floor so my eyes followed his direction loh.. trying to get a good look of his face ... that time spectacles left in car.
then reach the top of the escalator liao ... I'm still looking at the mr.handsome
but dunno why left leg go step in front without me pushing the trolley
there my left leg go ... go langgar the trolley and the wheel ... darn painful oh ...
whole leg like numb oredi for a while
lucky that time no one was behind us at the escalator or else they will have a good time laughing
my sister asked "ah jie, why you will kick the trolley wan? now know painful leh? " =P
I answered "ah jie think ah jie saw a handsome guy just now ma, you think purposely want to kick meh... ah jie see till dunno trolley reach liao lo .... if I know I don't want to see" =D
my sister said "that's why lo ... always ask you to be focus and concentrate lo , dun be so easily distracted ... especially like this ... not worth loh... ' =P
how true are my sister's words ... and I need my sister to remind me on that ...
not a good role model, i suppose =P
rising credit card bill
for giving 'happiness' to others
forgiving myself for having such a high credit card bill ;P hehe
end of the year and beginning of the year expenditure is the highest
... the festive seasons la ... the family holidays la ... some more the mega sales leh... aiyo
last but not least ... the bigger appetite lo .. hehe
I know .. I know what they say about 'delayed gratification' ... =)
not a very good idea =(
planning for when to take leave (for the no. of days entitled) the whole of next year - 2005
some more have to indicate dates !! ( i rather eat dates =P)
planning for block leave is fair and acceptable.
I can do planning for other things but
planning for whole year leave ... really 'gang ko' la ... I really don't know how to do
cause I really don't know when I want to make full use of my leave rather than taking leave for the sake of taking.
somebody please help me ... have to submit monday thru sms / phone ( coz i'm not working )
wonder who's so clever, came out with the idea and expect everyone to have so good planning like them? sigh ...
We have asked "what if we are not taking leave as the plan submitted?"
then seniors answer "best possible follow, but then if not ok oso "
I'll try my best loh .. if that's the case
this is one of the time when I'm no-good at planning wo =P hahaha ... =D
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
命运会刻意 锻炼你身手 但勤劳是你的 最佳老朋友
曲:蓝奕邦 词:林夕 编:鲍比达
常言道斗争 紧握了拳头 拳头若放开 可拥抱四周
静默放心里 笑容随左右 前途在你手 你找到没有
常言道强闯 少不免逆流 人柔弱似水 却可以载舟
命运会刻意 锻炼你身手 但勤劳是你的 最佳老朋友
* 得失只一念 风景不转心境转 烦恼来自偏执一切也依恋
风吹草动 命途乱了我不乱 交出了平常心 再随缘 *
万物有天意 我们有双手 来而复去的 看一看便够
自在放心里 往事留背后 无为是最高 你听过没有
自在放心里 往事留背后 浮云后曙光 看一看便透
meaningful lyrics =)
Monday, December 13, 2004
Occupation : Taxi Chauffer
last saturday, on a taxi to Matrix (phileo damansara 2) from Midvalley with Foong Ling & Hena
the taxi driver was a man in his 50s (could be late 50s)
As compared to previous taxi driver, he was not 'choosy' ( knowing M'sian taxi driver)
As we got up the taxi, he asked where are we headed to.
He doesn't seem to know Matrix exact location, luckily he knew when Foong Ling informed him near Eastin Hotel.
It was drizzling. Foong Ling & Hena was chatting happily behind.
a bit difficult to join them, I spoke to the taxi driver instead =P
earlier he mentioned about the air-cond getting cold on rainy days, so I started the conversation from there
(conversation may not be in sequence, basically can remember the things mentioned only)
me : uncle, just refill your air cond gas ah?
TD : no lah, this air cond like this wan. hot day not cold, cold day become colder
me : oh ...
me : so you drive around KL area? got go outstation?
TD : ours can't go outstation wan, only limited to KL & Klang Valley.
me : like that ya. how do you differentiate? by colour of taxi?
TD : nowadays you can see taxi many colour, they follow the company lo... different company might cover different directory / area
me : so how long have you been driving already?
TD : I used to drive taxi a few years back, then I stopped & work as chef. Then now, I come back to drive lo
me : wa ... chef ah? then you cook very delicious food lo? you open own restaurant? where? next time can come & try?
TD : I was working as chef with Tai Tong Restaurant Group, but now no more already ... retire
me : wa... Tai Thong serve excellent food ... which tai thong?
TD : that one at royal Selangor club
me : so ngam wan, I had attended my friend's wedding there a few months back. Were you the cook during then?
TD : dunno leh cause I left a few months back also
me : so where you staying?
TD : (sorry, I forgot where he stay liao)
me : staying with your family?
TD : yalo, my mother also staying with us, my wife and my grandchildren. my children all grown up already
me : your children sure got ask you to 'heung fook' = 'enjoy life"
TD : haha... no la, nowadays parents don't depend on children anymore lo. not like my parents time, can depend on children. even now my mum stays with us
me : you are very fortunate... 4 generation together
TD : most important in life is to be happy
me : ya... true
TD : while I still can work, why not work. it's hard to slow down when I had been working all these while
me : take some rest ma
TD : need money also
me : so like you all, when start work and when finish
TD : we start 9am till 10pm, sometimes earlier, sometimes later
me : that's 12 hours ++
TD : what to do, then only able to 'pulang modal'
me : so your taxi hire purchase or rent wan?
TD : this is rent, so every month has to repay rent. but the maintenance & repair handle by the company. before this, we dunno, bodoh bodoh go hire purchase, but later found out that maintenance & repairs are very costly.
me : mm... especially you all taxis travel alot
TD : per day can reach abt 300km. each day have to earn about rm50 - rm60 then only pulang modal only
me : may be holiday season got more people. but you are good, at least you don't chose customers. just now, there was a taxi that didn't even wanted to take any customer after 5 people asked.
TD : for me, I believe has to be professional & ethical. If I don't want to take customer, I'll not stop, but if I stop I'll take the customer where they wanted to go. most importantly is happy ma
me : yalo =) when you take customer, you get to know more places & you might get more customer when you arrive at the place
TD : actually, when taxi driver do that, it is no good for other taxi driver in the industry
=P somemore I cannot remember liao. too many things happened that night at Matrix
he dropped us at Phileo Damansara 1, as we decided he need not take the ticket & go in. we can walk to look for Matrix.
I paid and said 'thank you'
but I forgot to do something - to at least get his contact or give him my card ... aiya
then at least i can propose to help him or his children and grandshildren plan financially
however, I knew it was never an easy life for a taxi driver ( although their job may seem easy ... driving people around)
ps. my friend asked "why are you so friendly?" I don't know but I know what I wouldn't know if I haven't asked =)
maybe next time I can publish a journal on 'strangers I have met' and what they taught me =) God bless
becoming santa claus
bringing joy to children from kindergartens & nurseries around his area
bringing joy to unfortunate children
and he's about 60+ but he is healthy although he had a bypass surgery
he always joked that "god doesn't want me to go yet cause he knows I still want to give. I always tell HIM that "
He's not wealthy materially, but he's very 'wealthy' in his own ways
he's among one of the 'best' person I had met
In fact, I learnt alot speaking to him. His word of wisdom has at many times influenced me.
sometimes, when I wanted to do something, his words will come to my mind (and they are of course good ones)
I had changed some of my bad habits because of him. he's truly a person I looked up upon
(did i mentioned he's a very humble man as well who doesn't discriminate)
So for this Christmas, I wish only for this
" for you uncle lee & your family, for all your wishes to come true "
HorOscoPE
this was my horoscope for the 13/12/04 from THE STAR
" Don't underestimate your ability to recover from a couple of setbacks at the moment.
Remember Goethe's wise words " What doesn't destroy me makes me stronger ".
Your comeback will be better than ever ! "
feel great reading it
just imagine just 3 sentences and it is all it takes
I really see HOPE in HorOscoPE
and I'll turn that HOPE into reality
" 明天的幸福总要靠今天修 "
曲:徐嘉良 词:李安修/陈高荣
远方的山边有一朵白云
白云的深处流着一条小溪
小溪的里面住着一只金鱼
金鱼的每天就是游来游去
小溪的隔壁有一座庙宇
庙宇的大堂摆着一个神几
神几的上面住着一只木鱼
木鱼的每天都是敲来敲去
哦日升又日落好时光匆匆过
你敲来敲去敲什么
外面的世界水也甜花也红
人生得意要把握
哦潮起又潮落风无情浪汹涌
你游来游去游什么
明天的幸福总要靠今天修
风花雪月要看透才解脱
金鱼和木鱼有太多不同
永远弄不清别人过的生活
当一天和尚就要敲一天钟
所以他们就继续自己的梦
The message I wish to impart
is in those 11 chinese characters
which can be literally translated as
" tomorrow's fruits of happiness have to be sowed today "
simply meaningful
Monday, December 06, 2004
To : Santa Claus, BCC : myself
This year on Christmas Eve or Christmas night, will you drop by my house with your faithful reindeers? =)
Will you let me know you are here? =)
Will you see my sock?
(don't worry I'll hang somewhere you can see and put things in easily =P)
uncle Santa,
I know I'm greedy .. hehe
but may I let you know what I wish to have,
just in case if you think I have been a good girl (not being naughty) and decided to drop something for me =P
- I wish 'health & happiness' for my loved ones and everyone reading this =)
- I wish to learn more chinese (can you teach me, Santa? =)
if your bags are heavy, you would like to drop more items, Santa (however, if you decide not to, can I offer to help you carry the bags and bring joy to people? )
- I wish a 'digital camera' - Canon Power Shot A400 will do ( me no good at taking photos, only want to capture some moments =)
- I wish for 'tuition fees for CFP' (or do your place offer interest free loan? =)
Yours Sincerely,
Su
P.S. Santa, I'm also 'BCC' ing a copy to myself. I know you can give me the ' ABILITIES ' to make my wishes come true, right? =) THANK YOU SANTA =)
*** the above letter is just for fun, it has no intention whether direct or indirect to offend *****
taking MC?
Like going to get sick but not yet actually get sick wo
only know feel very "uncomfortable" and "not well" loh
must be because took cold water bath at Cameron Highland
and simply eat too much of good food.
don't care la, tomorrow if still no improvement
me going to take MC
MC & MC =)
Sunday, December 05, 2004
a BIG thank you =)
still remember the 'mini financial planning workshop' that I had been talking about for past few weeks? =) remember those email invitation you received? or my earlier post?
If I get those photos we take during the workshop, will post here =)
a BIG thank you to everyone =)
to the organiser (SBB Mutual Bhd), my team mates, to all of you who took time to read, reply (be it favourable or unfavourable =P), call, sms, those who are interested but unfortunately unable to make it,
and last but not least, those who had attended =)
We had a great time at the workshop. It was simple yet enriching. I could hear some participants say :
" What had I been doing all these while? "
" If only I knew about this earlier ... "
" how come they never teach us these last time wan? "
( for your info, BNM Governor Tan Sri Dr. Zeti Akhtar Aziz hopes that financial education will be a subject in the local school syllabus soon)
" really wake me up "
earlier on, me also like them..
but someone told me " It's still OK to know now "
" better late than never "
" at least now you know what you don't know ma, then you can do something about it"
hope we have benefitted from it and continue to benefit from it
" Someone's sitting in the shade today
because someone planted a tree a long time ago "
"PLANT YOUR SEEDS NOW !!"
p.s. If you would like to be invited for future workshops, please email me at suching09@yahoo.com =)
我难过
don't know what style but nice listening =)
pls bear with me ya ... currently 'sedang memperbaiki' my bahasa Cina
曲:周传雄 词:陈信荣
我难过
那一年默默无言 只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经 不再精采
你害怕结局所以 拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的 美好未来
你坚决 不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你 受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是
放弃你 放弃爱 放弃的梦被打碎 忍住悲哀
我以为 是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是
忘了你 忘了爱 尽全力忘记我们 真心相爱
也忘了 告诉你 失去的不能重来
江南
R & B chinese style
江南
曲:林俊杰 词:李瑞洵
风到这里就是黏 黏住过客的思念
雨到了这里缠成线 缠着我们流连人世间
你在身边就是缘 缘份写在三生石上面
爱有万分之一甜 宁愿我就葬在这一点
圈圈圆圆圈圈 天天年年天天 的我
深深看你的脸 生气的温柔 埋怨的温柔 的脸
不懂爱恨情愁煎熬的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信爱一天 抵过永远 在这一剎那冻结了时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
离愁能有多痛 痛有多浓 当梦被埋在江南烟雨中心
碎了才懂
3R ... Raya Rakan Reunion
Friday night is always fun (provided Saturday don't have to work la)
We had a great 3R ... had been looking forward to it
left office at 5.15 sharp to go buy some chocolate as 'buah tangan' - shared by some of us
had difficulties looking for chocolate ... all the chocolate on display looks so inviting
I ended up choosing the one I think is tastiest =P
We decided to go home first. I reached home late, supposed to go over to chai yee's place about 7.45pm before proceeding to mai's home.
When we reached, almost everyone was there ... busy chatting, laughing and eating
Our mouth was busy all night ... when we are not eating, we are laughing or chatting.
we browse through photos, share some stories, exchange laughters
on tv, was showing Charlie's Angel - Full Throttle
Mai, the rice and ayam sambal you masak is very delicious =)
Lain kali nak makan lagi boleh? =)
thanks also for all the kuih raya =) i sekarang sudah tahu 'itu' kuih bahulu bukan kuih balu ... LOL
thank you to all present. It was indeed a wonderful night ... rasa macam tak nak balik rumah =)